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[MystAngel]

Maiden, Mother, Crone...please help me. I don't know what to do.
Any choice I make will hurt someone. Do I choose to hurt so others
can be happy? Even dying would hurt someone.
Please give me the strength I need and some guidance.
You spoke to me this weekend, and said you would be there when
I needed you....please be with me now so I can make the right choice.
so be it.

[MystAngel]

The choice has been made, and you've given me a way to cope and learn to accept and hopefully love the choice, in the end. I Thank you for this. I understand what I'm going to be sacrificing for this, and I accept this fully. I would ask for additional strength to not fully subjugate myself if possible. So shall it be. Namaste.

[MystAngel]

Ahh, Lady, you got me that time...I pray for something, and then say, if not, so be it...give me strength..and wham, I don't get the first thing and have to find the strength... *Myst makes her offering for strength, backs up, turns and goes back inside away from the growing moon*

[MystAngel]

*Myst sits in her spot outside, looking at lightning in the distance and the moon shining through the clouds*..... Thank you for helping me get through this day... and for showing me that the darker path isn't "worse" just different.. Grant me the strength for tomorrow, and thank you for today.

[MystAngel]

*Myst stands at the lake, watching lighting to the north and south, and the full moon in the east* My love suggested turning my tragedy into an adventure....which is good advice. Please continue to give me strength and help me to love myself, so I can love him and others. *Myst takes a last look at the moon, and heads for home, where her love is waiting patiently for her to come to her senses*

[MystAngel]

Lady, you are said to watch over and help those that ask, giving boons and gifts as you wish. I ask that you be with me, watch over me, guide me so that I can realize the gifts I already have, and receive that which I need to empower myself and grow. Keep my feet on the right path, and teach me what I need to know. So Be It.

[MystAngel]

*Myst lights her incense and holds her new crystal in her hands* Lady, you know my thoughts and my desires and my dreams. Help me to reach those goals, become silent and strong within, and let me be strong for my love, if and when he needs my energy. I cherish what I've been given this week, and thank you for this time. Namaste.....

[MystAngel]

*Myst sits outside in the sun and wind, face tilted up to the sky* Lady, things most definitely didn't turn out as "planned", but I guess that means we shouldn't look past the current day... Thank you for what I've been taught these past few months. I've grown in ways that were necessary, even though the path to that place was a bit..rough, shall we say? Please continue to watch over me, and throw my feet back in line if I head off the wrong way. So Be It.

[MystAngel]

The day has started out wonderfully well, Lady...please help me to keep an open mind and be happy today... I have to work so hard for that peace and compersion that seems to come so naturally to others. Silence within, strength, peace, happiness, love, compersion, acceptance of myself and others... I would ask for these things, My Lady... So Be It. *Myst slowly puts out her candle and gathers herself together for the coming day* May it be better than any before. So Be It.

[MystAngel]

I don't want to have this anger inside me anymore. I want to banish it, and banish that which causes me the anger. Please, Lady..... just let that part go away and then I can enjoy everything I have right now. Bah....it really shouldn't matter to me anymore, so I won't let it. Thank you for the strength I've been given, and please let it continue. (I would also have this happiness continue, if it is to be so) So Be It, Myst

[MystAngel]

*Myst watches the moon slowly change to the dark moon* Lady, I've been studying the dark moon, and how it relates to my days/months/years... I realize that the dark times must come to bring rebirth and new ideas and feelings. Thank you for the guidance, and please keep helping me stay on this path..I think it's truly for my highest good. If this isn't so, let me know or move me to the right path. So Be It and thank you.

[MystAngel]

*Myst curls up with her stuffed lion* Why do the dark times have to be so chaotic and confusing? Why can't the old stuff end and new stuff begin without all the hard work? Lady, I know the deal, but that doesn't make it any easier...you know? I know, I know. stfu and do what you need to do. Ok. But I definitely don't feel like saying thank you, even though I should. *Myst shuffles her feet, and ducks her head* I know.

[Tabby]

*huggles you tight* Thank you for your friendship. It is hard to start new things..while leaving the old behind. It takes a great toll on us and is hard to get past..you are a very strong person... you will do it, but it will take time *huggles you again*