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[Asthmorte]

well...ok....I'll give this a try. Im 14 and am suspended from school for a year...Im supposed to be going to 9th grade.....I got suspended because someone(no clue who) accused me of having drugs. they searched me and found nothing...but suspended me anyways. that happened in february, and since then Ive been in a downward spiral. My first love and I broke up, I started cutting, feeling extremely depressed, drinking, doing anything to numb the pain. I dont have any friends left really with the exception of penpals. school is starting now...and its hard to watch everyone else going to get school supplies, new clothes, etc.

to make things worse, my mom keeps threatening to kick me out of the house, saying she doesnt want me anymore. I now have severe depression and honestly dont see any reason to go on. If I had a gun I would blow my brains out. I dont think I deserve to live. my stepbrother molests me, my dad and I dont talk, my mom and step dad hit me. I just feel so empty all the time. Im on meds, but they dont seem to work. now Im up to 4 different meds. One to help me sleep and three for depression. I just need some hope, a reason to crawl out of bed every day.

[CuriousJadeEyes]

:( I thought the most they could suspend you for was three weeks?... but that's not important. Trust me, life is worth living. I used to think it wasn't and then a friend of mine took her life. If you ever want to talk, just PM me.

[{Tigress}]

asthmorte, You have a PM. :)

[semi]

hey, I know you, we've argued with Stormbeard about music. \mn/. Anyway, even though I seem like an idiot on most of my posts I've had experience in everything you mention. Everything. And I am alive and very very strong because of it. I would like to talk to you about these things. I've read your posts and I know that you have a lot to offer the world, to offer MW, and to offer me. So I'd like to talk to you. PM coming soon. Okay?

[{Tigress}]

asthmorte, I've contacted a Peer Counselor, so you should hear from them shortly. If you do not hear from them within 24 hours, please let me know and I'll assign someone else.

Thank you. :)

[violet rain]

hey from all of the things you post here you sound like you have alot to offer and you are a very kind person if you ever want to talk just pm me ok.