Somewhere I belong

[Avalonia]

Well, then. My general, overall problem: At the age of 9, I began to get very depressed. I've been battling with my inner demons for years now because of it (I'm 17 right now). Due to this, I have suffered a great deal of doubt, confusion, and utter lack of self-confidence. Most of the doubt and confusion is related to religion. I was raised Catholic, and from after my first penance, I knew I didn't belong there. At the age of 13, I discovered Wicca. However, since then, I've realised I don't belong there either. Although it certainly seems that my religion seems to be pointing in the general direction of Christianity, I'm still confused because some of my personal beliefs don't quite exactly fit, but they don't fit anywhere else, either.

My self-confidence is gradually growing again, after I realised that I'm okay with being a complete and total geek, and I'm gradually beginning to like me for who I am. It's not all that strong and it doesn't take much to break the support out from under me, but it's a start. However, I get this feeling that it'd be stronger if I had somewhere to belong for my foundation.

Arg. I'm sick and tired of arguing with myself what's wrong about me, what's right, what I have to change, etc., because I'm not getting answers either way. And, yeah, it'd be nice to have someone to talk to about it.

Sorry if this post makes no sense, I tend to mangle things when I'm trying to make sense of what's going on in my head. XD

[{Tigress}]

Thank you for posting. :)

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