Rainbow Bridge for Human loss.

[Shanti]

I couldnt find a sticky for loss of a loved one support or anything. I found one for misscarraige, pets and all sorts of probs but nothing for mourning.

I just wanted to say if I have been a little not myself lately, its because this past week marked the 5th year aniversary of us loosing our baby. It was medically a miscarrage but I dont look at it as one concidering that I held our child in my hands for awhile and said goodby. He was beautiful.

We had a cerimony for him an an island where we lease 2 acres and it is all wild. We had a bon fire and talked and I sang to our child and my SO shot an arrow of wood out over the lake to symbolise Epony Sage, being free to travel to his new life.
Epony Sage, was creamated at the hospital. But before we went to the island for our private goodby cerimony, my SO had found a perfect dragonfly that was dead on his truck when he went to the store. He found it just sitting on the hood as if it landed and died there while my SO was shopping. For us the dragonfly symbolises the dance of light, so we assume it was a gift, We took it to the island and wrapped it in our babys blanket and put it in the fire to symbolise the freeing of its soul and our childs....both one in the light.

So with memories of our beloved Epony Sage, I have been out of sorts. I will be back to myself soon though.
I just wanted to share this with you all.

You may of touched us briefly dear one, but your forever in our hearts.
I love you my little Sage.

[morrigen]

Oh, Shanti :hugz:

I've misted up with tears...and I don't have the words...but I look at my little boy, and I've seen the photos of your children....and, from one mother to another, you have my love and support :hugz:

[Temair]

I'm so sorry, Shanti. No one should have to go through that. :hugz:

[Shanti]

Thanks morrigen, Temair.

Its just amazing how 5yrs is still as clear as yesterday.

[Velvet]

:hugz: Shanti

[Velvet]

Two of my grandparents passed away this past year, my step-grandmother 2 days before my brother's birthday, and my grandfather on my birthday. I'm still having a hard time dealing with the fact that I never got to know them well.

[Shanti]

Thanks Velvet. ~hugs~ for you.

[Shanti]

Sorry for your loss of your grandparents, Velvet.
For me everything goes back to normal once Sept comes. The month of August lost appeal. My MIL's birthday is on the day of our childs passing and she cant understand that I can not acknowledge her birthday, yet, under the circumstances. The family was mad because I refused to part take in my MIL's birthday party. I said to dam bad..its a very painful day for me. If they cant understand..its their problem. I cant say happy birthday to my MIL when I cant say it to Sage.
Maybe in time it'll change. 5 yrs hasnt done that yet.

[Thistle]

Oh, Shanti. :hugz: It's so hard to lose a child.

[blithespirit]

Your story has helped me more than you can realize. I am, at the moment, 35 weeks along with my daughter. (We're pretty sure that her name is Iris.) The pregnancy seemed right by the book like my previous two until my 28 week ultrasound. The baby was fine, but they noticed a strange growth in there with her, and they couldn't figure out what it could be. I'd had a u/s before, and they hadn't seen it then. After further scans, the doctors determined the growth to be an acardiac twin. Another baby who had never developed a heart or brain, and had probably died very early in the pregnancy. Most of the time when this happens, the other twin becomes absorbed by the placenta and things proceed normally, but in this rare condition, the other fetus continues to grow from the blood being pumped from the "normal" twin.

I've spent the last month in confusion and grief, trying to come to terms with what is going on in there. I want to be happy that I will have one baby that is, as far as we can tell at this point, healthy. A little girl to play with her older brothers. A DAUGHTER! :) I cannot stop thinking about the other one...who most likely would have also been a girl because this usually only happens in identical twins. I hope that when the time comes, I have enough strength to say goodbye and honor her spirit in such a beautiful and powerful manner.

[Shanti]

Your story has helped me more than you can realize. I am, at the moment, 35 weeks along with my daughter. (We're pretty sure that her name is Iris.) The pregnancy seemed right by the book like my previous two until my 28 week ultrasound. The baby was fine, but they noticed a strange growth in there with her, and they couldn't figure out what it could be. I'd had a u/s before, and they hadn't seen it then. After further scans, the doctors determined the growth to be an acardiac twin. Another baby who had never developed a heart or brain, and had probably died very early in the pregnancy. Most of the time when this happens, the other twin becomes absorbed by the placenta and things proceed normally, but in this rare condition, the other fetus continues to grow from the blood being pumped from the "normal" twin.

I've spent the last month in confusion and grief, trying to come to terms with what is going on in there. I want to be happy that I will have one baby that is, as far as we can tell at this point, healthy. A little girl to play with her older brothers. A DAUGHTER! :) I cannot stop thinking about the other one...who most likely would have also been a girl because this usually only happens in identical twins. I hope that when the time comes, I have enough strength to say goodbye and honor her spirit in such a beautiful and powerful manner.
I'll tell you one thing. When we lost our baby I knew it wasnt over. We wanted one more child and when the doctor gave us the green light, we had that last one. Our son Rune. Now that he is here, I realize that if Sage wouldnt of left, we wouldnt have Rune. We didnt want anymore so we would of stopped after Sage. I believe there is a reason Sage left, so Rune could be here. I may not know why Rune was meant to be but I bet Sage knows. Its bitter sweet. I am sad that I didnt get to have my Sage, but I couldnt imagine life without my Rune!! Someday I may know that reason but until then, I am so glad to have Rune.

I wish for your daughter to be strong and healthy.

[Lunacie]

Hugs and sympathy to all those who are grieving, and remembering the anniversary of a loved one's death. Last week would have been my mother's 76th birthday. She died 5 years ago this coming month. My ex died last year about 2 weeks after the 1 year anniversary of our divorce. We celebrated his wake on my birthday. I'm not sure what that anniversary will feel like this year.

[blithespirit]

Thank you again, Shanti, and everyone.

{{Good vibes to all}}

[IshtarDarkmist]

I have been where you are. My condolences on your loss. My hubby and I still think of our little Autumn Rain. When we left the emergency room that night it was a clear night full of stars and it began to rain just lightly, it was over in seconds but we both cried. It felt like she was saying goodbye before moving on from our world. That was 6 years ago and reading your post has brought me to tears. I am very sorry for your loss hun. :hugz:

[Shanti]

I have been where you are. My condolences on your loss. My hubby and I still think of our little Autumn Rain. When we left the emergency room that night it was a clear night full of stars and it began to rain just lightly, it was over in seconds but we both cried. It felt like she was saying goodbye before moving on from our world. That was 6 years ago and reading your post has brought me to tears. I am very sorry for your loss hun. :hugz:
~huds~ for you to.

[Jenne]

:hugz: for all of you...no parent should have to go through that.

May the Goddess grant you peace and strength, for all of you grieving here.

:huddle:

[Shanti]

Thank you all. It feels good to share. Not so lonely. :hugz: