Do I have some sort of calling?

[BluDreamer]

I've expienced so much and seen many things in my life. I am 21 now, but since I was 13 I felt asthough I were seeing with different eyes. I've predicted deaths and births, gender of the child... I've read palms when I was 9, I've played around with spells I didn't even know of- like a binding spell on my mother when I was 10... I knew I was pregnant and having a girl, even before I took the test because of a dream I had, my son also came before my in a dream and I saw him as a man with curly reddish brown hair, he told me who he was and his name. Now my son is 1 and his hair is curly and reddish brown!
I've asked for signs and recieved them through the sky. One dreary day I was on my way to do laundry. I saw the sun's rays peeking through the clouds as I was driving. It was also drizzling. I wondered and whispered to myself, asking if I could see a rainbow as a sign. I did not see any at that moment. I was at the laundry mat putting my clothes in, when this strange person came in and started POURING his detergent on his clothes. Normally someone wouldn't say "Hi", but I gadly spoke those words to him. All of a sudden, the atmosphere all around us turned ORANGE.
"Oh, there must be a rainbow. It only gets like this when there's a rainbow outside." He said. Had he not told me this, I wouldn't have known! We went outside and as clear as day, the most brightest, colorful, biggest (in full length) right there in front of us... stood that rainbow. I stood ther and gazed up at it for maybe 15 minutes. I felt a rush I've never felt- I wanted to cry. I felt like I was being blessed. It didn't go away for a while after I went back in... still in disbelief that just happened. But it did, and I wasn't alone.
I've seen other such signs- big like that one and even the littlest. A big black crow flew on top of that very same laundry mat, on a different day as I was sitting, waiting in my car. I looked up at the crow looking back at me. I told it to fly down, and after he hesitated- he did, picking up a piece of bread then flying off. Dissappearing completely. How could a piece of bread suddenly appear? In front of a laundry mat? I can understand if it were a resturaunt... I don't know. I don't think it was my imagination playing tricks on me however, possibly some mystical force at work here.
Sometimes I can control the weather... I'll get this strong instinctual feeling that it will rain, or I'll wish it to, and it starts down pouring. I'll ask it to stop and at that instant... it does. Completely or for even a minute or two. When I want it to be sunny, it would. My mother even stated to me that SHE could make it rain. My mother is very spiritual and practices magic, aswell. My sister (I never grew up with, but when we met for the first tim when I was 15- we had everything in common) she wrote poetry, like me... had phycic dreams and practiced tarot. My mother told me before that she was a witch... but I think she's crazy... or I thought she was, but now I'm not so sure.
I've had tons of out of body expierences, spirits contacting me through dreams, basically anything. I felt as though I was always being watched... haunted. They've made their prenence known around me... spoken to me on a few occassions- don't get me wrong- I was totally freaked out about it. I was scared- but then I realized it was alright... they were trying to speak to me for a reason.
I had a dream of my friend grasping his chest in pain. Then when I was sleeping later that day I had a sort of out of body experience where the spirits took me into maybe the future? Anyway, they showed me someone lying on the floor. They repeated to me over and over that they died of heart failure. It lingered into my mind as I came back.
I spoke to my friend, I asked him if he ever had his heart checked out... He told be he's been seeing doctors for while now about it. He's gatta take cholesterol pills because it's so high. He said he's been a "WALKING HEART ATTACK" since he was 20. He's 30 something now. He also said he's due for more bloodwork- but he put it off because he had to get the new insurance. I told him to make sure he does that and now he's already made an appt for next week.
Since I spoke to him about that, I think now these spirits know that I'm listening and I feel like I've opened a door and I'm getting wide reception. It's driving me crazy! I feel like I'm losing my mind and I have an incredible drive to do something about it. I need help... I need guidence... I don't know what to do or what I should practice or anything!!

Please send me some answers- Can anyone help me?

BluDreamer

[Aelfoak]

I think you have a very special gift there Blu which you can use for the good of people, i advise that you go and see a Medium for advice as i feel that you could use your gift this way.

[BluDreamer]

Thank you for this kind thought, Aelfoak. I wish I could... But I don't know what to do. I knew someone once- not too long ago. Our friendship ended because he started having deep feelings for me. He says that he is a Druid, and he practices dark magic. I've seen all the books and he was trying to teach me about peganism. I guess I was a bit intimidated. Could meeting him perhaps be karma? Maybe I should give him a call and he could help me learn more. But I don't know about dark magic... maybe I'd like to know more about white magic. What is the difference?

Thank you so much.

BluDreamer

[xxxenophobe]

Depending on the person and there exact beliefs, magic can be manny things... to me dark is only the balancing foce to light... and to explore both aspects is to understand more about the way things work.. though more so in some practices... im more of a "natural" witch... using nature as a base of understanding. But we should talk this weekend more... hit me up about whats going on... talk lur my blu...

[Parker]

I've expienced so much and seen many things in my life. I am 21 now, but since I was 13 I felt asthough I were seeing with different eyes. I've predicted deaths and births, gender of the child... I've read palms when I was 9, I've played around with spells I didn't even know of- like a binding spell on my mother when I was 10... I knew I was pregnant and having a girl, even before I took the test because of a dream I had, my son also came before my in a dream and I saw him as a man with curly reddish brown hair, he told me who he was and his name. Now my son is 1 and his hair is curly and reddish brown!
I've asked for signs and recieved them through the sky. One dreary day I was on my way to do laundry. I saw the sun's rays peeking through the clouds as I was driving. It was also drizzling. I wondered and whispered to myself, asking if I could see a rainbow as a sign. I did not see any at that moment. I was at the laundry mat putting my clothes in, when this strange person came in and started POURING his detergent on his clothes. Normally someone wouldn't say "Hi", but I gadly spoke those words to him. All of a sudden, the atmosphere all around us turned ORANGE.
"Oh, there must be a rainbow. It only gets like this when there's a rainbow outside." He said. Had he not told me this, I wouldn't have known! We went outside and as clear as day, the most brightest, colorful, biggest (in full length) right there in front of us... stood that rainbow. I stood ther and gazed up at it for maybe 15 minutes. I felt a rush I've never felt- I wanted to cry. I felt like I was being blessed. It didn't go away for a while after I went back in... still in disbelief that just happened. But it did, and I wasn't alone.
I've seen other such signs- big like that one and even the littlest. A big black crow flew on top of that very same laundry mat, on a different day as I was sitting, waiting in my car. I looked up at the crow looking back at me. I told it to fly down, and after he hesitated- he did, picking up a piece of bread then flying off. Dissappearing completely. How could a piece of bread suddenly appear? In front of a laundry mat? I can understand if it were a resturaunt... I don't know. I don't think it was my imagination playing tricks on me however, possibly some mystical force at work here.
Sometimes I can control the weather... I'll get this strong instinctual feeling that it will rain, or I'll wish it to, and it starts down pouring. I'll ask it to stop and at that instant... it does. Completely or for even a minute or two. When I want it to be sunny, it would. My mother even stated to me that SHE could make it rain. My mother is very spiritual and practices magic, aswell. My sister (I never grew up with, but when we met for the first tim when I was 15- we had everything in common) she wrote poetry, like me... had phycic dreams and practiced tarot. My mother told me before that she was a witch... but I think she's crazy... or I thought she was, but now I'm not so sure.
I've had tons of out of body expierences, spirits contacting me through dreams, basically anything. I felt as though I was always being watched... haunted. They've made their prenence known around me... spoken to me on a few occassions- don't get me wrong- I was totally freaked out about it. I was scared- but then I realized it was alright... they were trying to speak to me for a reason.
I had a dream of my friend grasping his chest in pain. Then when I was sleeping later that day I had a sort of out of body experience where the spirits took me into maybe the future? Anyway, they showed me someone lying on the floor. They repeated to me over and over that they died of heart failure. It lingered into my mind as I came back.
I spoke to my friend, I asked him if he ever had his heart checked out... He told be he's been seeing doctors for while now about it. He's gatta take cholesterol pills because it's so high. He said he's been a "WALKING HEART ATTACK" since he was 20. He's 30 something now. He also said he's due for more bloodwork- but he put it off because he had to get the new insurance. I told him to make sure he does that and now he's already made an appt for next week.
Since I spoke to him about that, I think now these spirits know that I'm listening and I feel like I've opened a door and I'm getting wide reception. It's driving me crazy! I feel like I'm losing my mind and I have an incredible drive to do something about it. I need help... I need guidence... I don't know what to do or what I should practice or anything!!

Please send me some answers- Can anyone help me?

BluDreamer


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[Xentor]

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[Teresa]

Blu sounds like You have the gift of sight too. My advice to You is to trust Your instincts as they will rarely steer You wrong. If I were You I would seek out someone in Your area and talk to them .Someone with the same gifts.

[9-2-2]

Specifically, Blu, it seems like you have a strong talent for divination. You express a remarkable precision in your outcomes, and I strongly suggest grabbing reign of this innate talent and training the hell out of it. I too have a strong talent for divination, and I'm also honing this ability into razor sharpness. :)

If you do tarot cards or any other form, I suggest you practice hardcore scrying. The great thing about scrying is, you get snapshots, scenes, impressions, and a wide variety of info. I've practiced scrying a lot, and if I see a red car during a scry, it's either vermilion, maroon, b-movie red, or insurance-will-kill-me red. I look at the make and I RARELY get a scramble of letters like most do in dreams: I see LEXUS in big silver letters, FORD, CHEVROLET, etc.

Strong talents are GREAT to have, and they REALLY help out. I really wish you lived in my area, I'd take you to meet my mentor. :) He's teaching scrying this Sunday!

[9-2-2]

Pardon me for not answering the question stated as the topic. :)

I think that in this era, all mages have a calling. The weavers and tamperers of reality have grown in number, and continue doing so. More and more Christians are practicing "faith healing", when before (and still is in some places) faith healing was considered "the devil's work". Eastern Mysticism is flooding the west, and Western Mysticism is flooding the east. I live in a small midwestern city, and I used to see people wearing pentacles like, once a year. Now, I can't even duck in a Quik Trip without seeing one every DAY. There are probably few bookshelves in this city that does not have at least ONE book relating to the new age, or the occult.

If you pay close attention to reality around you, and listen closely to the hearthrobs of the veil between the worlds and the universe, you can feel how people pull at nodes, ley lines, and perform workings. A few weeks ago, there was a group tampering with a ley line down south... I have a feeling they won't be doing that anymore, lol. Last month, someone performed a drastic working somewhere on the world. You can't listen in on EVERYONE's workings, but drastic stuff WILL reach you with practice.

My point is this. As stated in the Celestine Prophecy, humanity is moving... well, maybe stumbling, into a new era. There's lots of energy workers around now, and that MEANS something. I'm not trying to roar about the endtimes, lol. But humanity is moving in a new direction, and hopefully, your average human is smart enough to not turn back. :)

Scry for your purpose. If you can't get one yet, then scry for what you should be doing to further yourself. :) That usually helps!

[BluDreamer]

Thank you so much for your reply 9-2-2!! That's the type of reply I've been waiting for. I don't know what "scry" is... but I often wonder about this "controlling weather" aspect. It happened again a few days ago- I was at work and it had stayed sunny all week... it seemed to match my mood because I had met my "gameplayer" and I was so happy... It stayed sunny everyday. When I was at work- a single thought occured... I thought it was time for it to rain...lol... went on break and it was raining. Strange thing- I wanted it to stop and be sunny the next day because i was seeing my friend... and it was sunny that morning and didn't rain at all- even the sun peeked out of the clouds when i "urged" it to. Could it be coincedence when it happens alot?

[9-2-2]

Now taking convo to PMification. :)

[misschief]

:D you sound like me:D. it's most definately special... but it's not easy.

[BluDreamer]

:D you sound like me:D. it's most definately special... but it's not easy.

It almost seems as though I'm looking through these glasses that make things more defined in a way... it's scary, like I feel like I'm losing it. I guess I'm not losing it so bad where I'm actually able to tell when I'm losing my mind...lol.

Well, things are more defined, and I see signs everywhere, the paths I cross with certain people, like I were ment to meet them for a small specific reason. or a great reason... it all becomes appearant. Do you feel that way... what do you feel?

_inabox_

[Tobias]

Hi Blu!

It sounds to me like you have the gift of foresight. Would you be open to the idea that your feeling that you can control the weather is really just a very accurate inner knowlage of what is going to happen soon?

I have a theory that psychic abilities are just human senses by which we see and hear into the spirit realm. The spirits know much more than we do, and just like a meteorologist can predict weather patterns days before they happen, some things we humans don't know are just basic general knowlage to the spirits (or whatever they are :) ).

I've known some people to be able to sense this info from the other realm, and for some reason pschologically they turn against it and fight it. Perhaps they just don't want it to be true. At any rate, they spend their lives fighting the flow and live terrible oppressed lives.

It sounds like you are doing the opposite. You seem to love the "flow" of things. This works in a way to amplify what ever it is you have picked up. However, I don't think you could possibly be changing something like the weather by just wishing it to happen. Whenever you feel inside that the weather is going to change, you immediately embrace it and therefore think that perhaps you caused it to happen.

I think this is a major factor in magick workings as well. Most people who work any kind of magick will testify that there are times when the spell or prayer just clicks and you know it will happen, and other times you can't get anywhere no matter how hard you try. This is because our psychic senses are picking up on whether it is possible to accomplish under the circumstanses, and whether we were directed to do the spell/prayer at that given time or not.

Personally, I had to work very hard to overcome this inner resistance to the spiritual. Don't let anything happen to you to cause you to turn against it, because fighting it make life a living hell.

I've also felt a calling on my life from a very early age. I've followed as best I could, yet even now at age 39 I still don't have any kind of job that would justify being "called". The most i ever do is type out posts like this one. :) I suppose that could be the extent of it -- a drive inside that has guided me thus far to take on all of the lessons THEY feel I need to learn; and turn around to help the next person whenever I can...

also mabey if I learn it all right, this "calling" could be an invitation to join the ranks as a Guide in the afterlife... ?

[fay]

heya blu!
sounds like youve got a real gift there. i hope you learn how to control it and understand it. finding and talking to some people with similar abilities should help you. good luck!
blessed be

[xxxenophobe]

Nice blu... im happy to see you made the character i made of you into a sig.... thats nice... and i hope you get some use outa the boks i got today for you... talk soon.. ;)

[BluDreamer]

Hi Blu!

It sounds to me like you have the gift of foresight. Would you be open to the idea that your feeling that you can control the weather is really just a very accurate inner knowlage of what is going to happen soon?

I have a theory that psychic abilities are just human senses by which we see and hear into the spirit realm. The spirits know much more than we do, and just like a meteorologist can predict weather patterns days before they happen, some things we humans don't know are just basic general knowlage to the spirits (or whatever they are :) ).

I've known some people to be able to sense this info from the other realm, and for some reason pschologically they turn against it and fight it. Perhaps they just don't want it to be true. At any rate, they spend their lives fighting the flow and live terrible oppressed lives.

It sounds like you are doing the opposite. You seem to love the "flow" of things. This works in a way to amplify what ever it is you have picked up. However, I don't think you could possibly be changing something like the weather by just wishing it to happen. Whenever you feel inside that the weather is going to change, you immediately embrace it and therefore think that perhaps you caused it to happen.

I think this is a major factor in magick workings as well. Most people who work any kind of magick will testify that there are times when the spell or prayer just clicks and you know it will happen, and other times you can't get anywhere no matter how hard you try. This is because our psychic senses are picking up on whether it is possible to accomplish under the circumstanses, and whether we were directed to do the spell/prayer at that given time or not.

Personally, I had to work very hard to overcome this inner resistance to the spiritual. Don't let anything happen to you to cause you to turn against it, because fighting it make life a living hell.

I've also felt a calling on my life from a very early age. I've followed as best I could, yet even now at age 39 I still don't have any kind of job that would justify being "called". The most i ever do is type out posts like this one. :) I suppose that could be the extent of it -- a drive inside that has guided me thus far to take on all of the lessons THEY feel I need to learn; and turn around to help the next person whenever I can...

also mabey if I learn it all right, this "calling" could be an invitation to join the ranks as a Guide in the afterlife... ?

That really makes sence. Thanks for the reply Tobias. About the strange weather thing, I often wonder if I just know when it's going to happen, therefore think of it the instant before it happens. Which really confuses me!

But then other times it seems to be different, I did a new post about that called "Making it Rain?" And have gotten some replies from others that seem to experience the same.

I don't know what exactly I can do with this "gift"- I would advice and try to help others, but because of me feeling doubts about this ability- I'd caution it. But I have given advice to my mother and really close friends. Sometimes I'll see things- and I think they might happen suddenly... but my dream reminds me- it may not happen when you think it will.

The dream was me riding a horse with a few others in an enchanted-like forest... we came upon a clearing and it seemed to be a desert-like plateau. There was a large crack in the ground. Me and my horse started walking along this crack... then there was an earthquake and it opened and we fell in.

I imediately found me and my horse back with the others in the forest. (As if the crack thing- was a foresight) and we came across the same clearing. We walked along the crack again... But when the earthquake struck.. the crack did not open. I went off to the side to avoid it, but there was nothing to avoid. I was stunned. The crack then did open... but not when I thought it would. I'll always remind myself this. Because I'll see many things, but not know for sure when.

Maybe I will be a guide in the afterlife... or something. lol

[k-ful]

welcome to the flipside.. :)

i know many people who have and are going through this experience, including myself.
for me, i believe it started when i should have died at the age of 13, from being in the passenger seat in my fathers car 2 days before christmas, when our car doing 80 and a van doing 100 were suddenly in the same lane facing eachother.

our car flipped and rolled 3 times down a cliff-ditch to a paddock below.. landing on the wheels. my father and i walked out up to the road we crashed from and had a talk with god for 10 or so minutes.

then i woke up in a hospital bed next to my father, who had nothing more than a broken sternum which healed in a couple weeks. i had nothing but seat belt injuries... both of us were able to enjoy christmas with all the family the day after next..

i guess all these gifts start being noticed when you cease taking things for granted and start noticing what was always there...

peace, love, unity, respecT!

[BluDreamer]

welcome to the flipside.. :)

i know many people who have and are going through this experience, including myself.
for me, i believe it started when i should have died at the age of 13, from being in the passenger seat in my fathers car 2 days before christmas, when our car doing 80 and a van doing 100 were suddenly in the same lane facing eachother.

our car flipped and rolled 3 times down a cliff-ditch to a paddock below.. landing on the wheels. my father and i walked out up to the road we crashed from and had a talk with god for 10 or so minutes.

then i woke up in a hospital bed next to my father, who had nothing more than a broken sternum which healed in a couple weeks. i had nothing but seat belt injuries... both of us were able to enjoy christmas with all the family the day after next..

i guess all these gifts start being noticed when you cease taking things for granted and start noticing what was always there...

peace, love, unity, respecT!

Thank you.

I think i started "seeing" things differently at the age of 13, also. I've always felt "protected", too.

I once was riding my bike at the age of 10 and I was hit by a car, (turning the wrong way) and I FLEW off my bike and I landed on the pavement (It didn't hurt at all, it almost felt... soft?) and rolled. My bike was messed up. I wasn't wearind a helmet or anykind of knee pads or anything. I only had a few tiny scratches. I still wonder about that experience.

Blu

[k-ful]

yes, many near death experiences have happened to me too...
its as if something is continually trying to kill me but somehow the forces of good manage to save me.

its very concerning sometimes driving my car... someone always has to come this close to wiping me out, i swear a few times my car and myself have turned phantom and driven straight through the front end of other cars without any effects.

every day could be the last, just be thank ful :)
i feel that these events are reminders that we're here on a condition... peace!