so yeah..

[Mouse]

I don't even know why I'm writeing this.. I've thought about talking to someone before but still can't help thinking that talking wont solve anything and anyhow people have better stuff to read and why aren't i out there helping others? *shakes head*

let me try again..

Alrighty so where to start? well i'm kinda having relationship trouble and am at a dead end and the rest of my life is suffering for it.. seems i spend all my time waiting (sept sometimes i don't even know what for). *shakes head to clear fog* see my partner is a lot older then me, and his ex-wife (defacto) has epilepsy and he is her care person because she isn't aloud to be alone.. we lived with her and his daughter for a year and a half and it felt like my own personal hell (wait.. i don't belive in hell.. hmm.. well you know) almost three moths ago we finally got out of there now he goes there three days a week when his daughter is in tafe and any other day she wants to go out.. which is becoming quite often because she just got a bf. He doesn't know what he will do when she moves out of home because the ex needs 24 hr care.. he wont put her in a home (recons she isn't qualifyed but im not really believeing that) and getting another live in care taker would be too expensive. I hate her (i have never hated anyone before... but i cant help it this time) i can't/wont live with her again.. I can't ask him to choose because i think it would be wrong.. im at the end of my rope and i just dont know what to do anymore.. she still acts like and tells people that they are married.. he still acts too friendly for my likeing

so yea.. im not sure what to say.. just thought i might see if there is someone to talk to or something?

Miriam

[cyber_fairie_king]

Listen bab, you really have to put your foot down a bit, as hard as it is for you. I don't think he knows how much it's hurting you even if you give little gestures. Be firm and tell him what you are thinking. _catroll_

[Mouse]

I do.. or try too.. I even abuse him in my sleep (as much as i try not too).. talking isn't working.. screaming isnt working.. *shakes head* aside from throwing him out (which i really don't want to do) i can't think of anything that i have not tryed..aside from magick coz im still debating ethics with myself..

thanks tho.. i see your point

[ApollaJade]

Would you still like a counselor? I can assign one to you now if you like...

[Mouse]

Would you still like a counselor? I can assign one to you now if you like...
I would apreciate someone to talk to thankyou..