Please..

[Iblis]

Give me emotion to offer love to my girlfriend.. she's helped lift me from a depression which seperated myself from emotion- pills weren't simply enough.. she's done so much, I want to do so much for her.. Gah, I wish, I -WISH- I could find a way to please her other than physically.. *Sigh*

[ObsidianSunrise]

Talk to her and tell her how much she means to you. That is simply one of the best ways to let her know. Sending you courage and strength!

[magick_faerie]

let her read your post. i thikn what she did is the perfect example of why people have a partner, and you wanting to make her feel good in return...well that makes you just as good as her. i hope you to have a long and happy life.

brightest blessings

fae

[Teresa]

Sending you some energies !

[LadyAutumnCat]

Energy sent. Depression is horrible, I know.

[OriginalWacky]

I'll light a candle here, to help illuminate other ways you can let her know.

In the meantime, here are a few ideas. Fill her car's gas tank up for her. Take the car and have it cleaned. Make her a special treat (even just a simple ice cream sundae). Tell her every day that you love her. Bring her a small token that she can look at and be reminded of you (a single flower, a small polished stone, a cd of love songs... use your imagination). Brag about how wonderful she is to someone who is likely to tell her, or within her hearing. Write her a poem, story, love song, whatever you can do. Dedicate a song to her on the radio, while she is listening of course.

These are just a few ideas, but it's a starting point. Some may cost you a little money, but most are free.

[Iblis]

Bring her a small token that she can look at and be reminded of you -
Brag of her when in hearing-

While the latter seems to be a wonderful idea, it doesn't appease me much..

But the first, god that sounds great! ^_^

My problem is, I do tell her how much I love her each day, but it simply doesn't seem to be enough.. and, since I doubt I will ever let her read this- and I feel horrible slash in a rut- let me spill my guts. Disregard the remainder of this if you dislike emotion-gut-spilling. xD

ANYWAY. She apparently had an extremely abusive boyfriend when she was younger, physically. Now, one thing you should know, she's a year behind us all, physically, she was skipped ahead. So, imagine someone getting beat up by someone they care for, when mentally younger. >.O

Anyway, she was apparently physically abused- sexually, I've heard from others- just, beaten, I've heard from her.. and.. yeah. >< Makes me sick, to think sexually, at that age and for no reason other than lust from the male. Physical can be healed, and I know how to treat that, or at least begin to..

Now, she's in a relationship with a twenty-three year old, and she's fourteen. Turning my age, fifteen, on Thursday.. I dunno' what to do.. she's admitted that she used to think loving another person was purely about sex- and while that gives me the 'notion that she doesn't believe that anymore.. every I go there, it turns into something physical. I took her to Home-Coming recently, tried to get the best dinner I could.. partly to make up for my inability to dance. >.>;; But.. it just didn't seem to please her. *Sigh*

I need.. I think, to find a base, to touch down with her. I've had some ideas.. asking her, directly, before our physical relationship goes any further- (No sort of sex. Oral, or otherwise. >.>;; But if it comes to that.. ><;; By the way, though I am a male, teenage sex disgusts me. Just to help explain things. o-o) I'd tell her to only do, whatever she did, if I'd made her feel truly happy, moreso than anyone else, in a relationship.. I think, something direct like that, on a 'brink' moment like that mught snap something, and cause her to wake-up.. If, I am right in the first place and she needs to be woken up.

Second, she said she'd hurt herself before. Cutting and the like. I've done the same, though, most of my pain has been emotional. I can withstand physical pain, so, that doesn't phase me much. ><; I was thinking.. one day, if she's down, if it ever comes to it- I'll ask her what she plans to do, or, what she has recently done, depending on the circumstances. Then, I'd do the exact same to myself, in front of her, and ask her to see how horrified people that care for her become, when her life- physical, spiritual, mental, is on the line.

I've had horrible doubts- again, I tend to harm myself emotionally.. I don't know if any of this would work, severe as it is.. I'm not sure if we love eachother, or if we're both desperate to have someone in our lives. But, I shall be trying as hard as I can do love- whether it truly is love now, or otherwise.. I just, don't want to unreasonable pressure on her, or appear pathetic.. bah...

Anyway! Thanks for the energy. ^_^ She said, yesterday, I was rather hard to steal energy from.. hopefully I'm better at taking it in. o_o;;

Ciao!

[twister]

I believe telling her is the best way to let her know how you feel. My thoughts are with you.

[Iblis]

I've got an idea- I think.. it has nothing to do with my above, super-emotional-gut-spilling piece of .. stuff.. >.>;; .. I think, for her Birthday on Thursday.. I've asked my Mother to get one of those super-soft super-cute n' cuddly stuffed animals you can purchase at the hospital where she gets her blood taken.. then, I'll grab a locket, and stuff a picture in there.. I.. just dunno' what the picture'll be though. I don't think a picture of myself would work out.. and all of our home-coming pictures.. I look horrible in. >.O; Maybe.. I'll pop in a heart? I dunno. ><

[ApollaJade]

that sounds sweet :)

[Quicksilver]

Perhaps you could try talking to her, or if you can`t say the right words write her a letter,
I went through depression myself and it took me six years to get over it.
I eventually managed to talk to the people who helped me, all I said was a simple thankyou for all the help that they had given me and that If they hadn`t have listened or been there then I wouldn`t have been here to write this message.

I hope this helps you.
contact me to let me know how it goes or if you need anymore help.

May the God and Goddess smile upon you and yours. :artist:

[WeepingWillow]

*Positive energies sent to you!*