Help Me

[The_Foresaken_Lestat]

Okay,

I know the last time I was on here I was a bit of an ass... but I was going through a lot, anyways, I went home and tried to work things out, but it isn't working... I dont know what to do anymore, Not only is my family life falling apart but so is my school and social life.

I dont know if I can take it much more...

I have many problems that I dare not mention on here, for fear of being reported to the authorities, and for fear of shameing my family, but believe me they do deserve it right about now.

I have a little problem at school, I know I posted this in the forums earlier, but I cant think straight, I go to a school where in the Student Handbook it says that I am not allowed to wear any "Anti-Christian" symbols, well as many of you know the Pentacle is considered an "Anti-christian" symbol... I have a few thoughts on this... first thought, I thought it was illegal for a school to promote a certain religion, and second, I thought it was illegal to discriminate against any other religion. But yet, they hold a meeting called "FCA", Fellowship of Christian Althletes, but they do not even think about introducing a "FPA", Fellowship of Pagan Athletes" I mean heck I am an athlete I compete in all of the UIL events and I have to abide by the UIL rule of no pass, no play which is fair, yes I understand, but all I have left is my comfort in my religion, I mean now I cant practice my religion in school, and I cant even wear the symbol of my religion, and that really really sucks, I mean I am currently in a fight with the school about a class called "PALs" , Peer Assistance and Leadership (Skills), which started going over to the schools today, which is why I am in the library typing this right now... Anyway... in my times of need in this school I cant even seek comfort in my religion because there is nothing here to hold, to feel, to touch that is of my religion... I mean its not like I am just another teen saying that "my school treats me wrong, boo hoo, poor pitiful me." I have been labled by this school district since the third grade, when I was placed in a class called "ABU", Adaptive Behavioral Unit, and ever since then i have fought this school for everything that I have, I mean when I got into this high school, I didn't even know that there were three levels of Diploma's I was in my junior year when i found that out and I had to remodel my whole senior year (Which I am in now) to get the middle diploma (Recommended) because I need Advanced Placement Classes which I could have taken I know I could have, and I would have passed, but it... brb... see there is the principal....

[The_Foresaken_Lestat]

OMG I cant take it any more,

I was met by 2 police officers, I have to go meet, Officer Hightower after school at city hall... I even have the mans freggin cell phone number... I cant take this any more I am starting to get suicidal over this, because all I want them to do is leave me alone, I just want it to all go away... but it wont... i dont know what to do any more... i want it all to stop... someone please help me, legiality at least... please.


Forever Yours,
Lestat

[The_Foresaken_Lestat]

I wanna say to myself, ya see this: _violin_ ? It the worlds smallest violen and its playing just for u.

[Yvonne Belisle]

All around you are the symbols of your faith. They are in the stone and the earth you stand upon. They are in the water you drink the air you breath and the food you eat. Many times paganism has been suppressed by christianity but it can not suppress what is in your heart. Take a moment to still your heart and listen to the beat of the world around you in it you will find a way to walk in your faith without needing the symbols that are recognizable. Faith is something you have or you do not. Can you see the gods and goddesses? They are all around you in all life you see them when you look in anothers eyes and when you look in your own in the mirror. Draw on that and find the stregth within we are all asked to go through hard things from time to time but you can find that we are never asked more than we can handle the stregth you need is there.

[HorseCrow]

The Pagan faith is not in a pentacle, it is in you. What you know and believe is in your heart and as far as I know, bringing your heart to school is not illegal.

You have to do right by others, if you want them to do right by you. The way you acted in here earlier and the way you say you act where you are (in trouble with the law etc) does not give the impression of you doing right by others and so, they will not do right by you. I know it may not be what you want to hear, but it is YOU that will have to bring about change. Instead of working yourself in deeper, line it up and start from one end and straighten out your problems- do your part and then others will hopefully do theirs and get your situation resolved. I do not know what the laws are regarding pentacles where you are, so that part you need to find out from someone who knows the legal parts of that. I do however know, that it is always possible to find something to blame for ones situation- but the truth is, we often have a big part in it ourselves. Therefore you need to sort out your part. otherwise you will not find improvement, cos it will not come to you unless you help it along.
The world would be a poorer place without you, so drop the suicidal thoughts. Stay and face the music.

Best of luck- you can do it :hugz: