a little guidance to counteract depression

[Morgance]

I figured this was as good of a place as any to post this. Maybe you folks could help some.

:sniffsnif

I've been going through a pretty hard time in my life lately. My depression has gotten worse (my medication was upped, and still doesn't seem to be working) and I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. My boyfriend is the only one who makes me feel like me, and I certainly need that right now.

So, I called him tonight because I needed him. I'd do anything to just hug him because I need that comfort. However, when I called him, before I could even ask if he wanted to do something he rhymed off this long long list of things he has to do. He told me he'd talk to me later, saud his I love you, and said goodbye.

now, this could just be a huge dissappointment because I was so looking forward to see him. I just miss him so much lately. I know our relationship is fine- I just wish we had more time for one another. I wish he didnt feel like he was compulsively running away. weither he means to or not. Ive never been a really open person, so it's difficult for me to just come out and say "i need you right now, because Im upset"- it makes me feel so selfish. So I dont know how to get through to him, and make him understand what im going through right now.

and I dont know what i can do to make myself feel better.

any help would be appreciated. thank you.

[DarkHeart13]

I figured this was as good of a place as any to post this. Maybe you folks could help some.

:sniffsnif

I've been going through a pretty hard time in my life lately. My depression has gotten worse (my medication was upped, and still doesn't seem to be working) and I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. My boyfriend is the only one who makes me feel like me, and I certainly need that right now.

So, I called him tonight because I needed him. I'd do anything to just hug him because I need that comfort. However, when I called him, before I could even ask if he wanted to do something he rhymed off this long long list of things he has to do. He told me he'd talk to me later, saud his I love you, and said goodbye.

now, this could just be a huge dissappointment because I was so looking forward to see him. I just miss him so much lately. I know our relationship is fine- I just wish we had more time for one another. I wish he didnt feel like he was compulsively running away. weither he means to or not. Ive never been a really open person, so it's difficult for me to just come out and say "i need you right now, because Im upset"- it makes me feel so selfish. So I dont know how to get through to him, and make him understand what im going through right now.

and I dont know what i can do to make myself feel better.

any help would be appreciated. thank you.
Hi..
I don't know if I'm allowed to post to this because I'm not a peer counselor but I saw this thread and noticed that no one has tried to help you so I'll post anyway.
I know how hard it is to be going through depression. The doctors thought I was borderline too but now they're saying I'm most likely Bipolar. You don't sound borderline to me. I'm not trying to be rude, I'm trying to be truthful. Borderlines are known to be really selfish and careless and here you are thinking of your boyfriend's feelings like that. The borderlines I've heard of never take time out to think in that manner.
Maybe if your boyfriend can't see you, you can talk to him on the phone for a few minutes. Or maybe you could go to his house and help him with whatever he's doing and talk to him then. Tell him how you feel though. Relationships are much better if you are totally honest with each other. Tell him you don't expect him to drop his life for you, but you need a little more time together to cope with things. You said you see a doctor but do you see a therapist? Therapists can really help you and maybe you need to get one. As for a Magickal answer, you could meditate your favorite music or his favorite music while thinking of him. I've heard of astral projection and bi location. I don't know much about them but maybe you could look them up and try it out.
I hope this has helped. I hope you feel better. You can always PM me if you want.
Blessed Be,
Jada Raine