Iora Rua
November 16th, 2004, 10:20 AM
Hi Everyone!
It seems that I'm a bit scattered right now, and could use some outside guidance & input. So here I am, with hat in hand...or is that cat in hand? ;) :lol: Anyways, I don't feel that this is of critical enough nature to put in the peer counselors area...hope I haven't screwed up!!
Bear with me...I can be excruciatingly long-winded!!!
I grew up in the traditional fundamentalist Christian household...and to this day...ALL my family members remain Christians. I never quite fit in with my beliefs...always questioning....and disturbed by the contradictions and items that just didn't jive with me or my own beliefs. Through my life, I've searched and dug into varying ideas..and always got lead back (pulled back) to the "occult." It wasn't until we met two dear people, however, that I "dared" consider Wicca or Witchcraft.
Meeting them is/was truly a blessing. Not only for their friendship...but, for the result of interaction with them...I wasn't floating listlessly anymore. Interestingly enough, right before I met them, I had made myself sit down and write what I believed. My OWN personal beliefs regardless of how "right" or "wrong" they seemed. I was amazed by the similarities of my beliefs to that of Wicca's..which is what my two friends are.
I also discovered that I had been performing off-the-cuff and spur-of-the-moment witchcraft most of my life. I began to study Wicca with materials lent to me by my dear friends. I was in HEAVEN!!! I could NOT get enough.
I also discovered that sleepy abilities were roaring to life...just amazingly so. (Odd/weird abilites were something we grew up around...as odd as that may sound!! Though Christian, we were introduced to many Wicca-type principals...lore, "superstitions", everyday acts and etc.) I studied Wicca for around 4 months or so, and unfortunately had to come to terms with the fact that I was NOT a Wiccan. A Witch...ya, probably so ....but, definitely not Wiccan.
I had to come clean with my friends/mentors/teacher...though I adore everything that I've learned, and love Wicca...it is a beautiful walk...it is just not for me.
So, I'm back on my own....which is not a bad thing. I love researching and finding things on my own but, I feel I'm rather drifting. No, I don't blame this on my friends. I just don't quite know where I fit in (haven't for a long time actually...and OH, the various things/religions I have studied in my search).
I believe that my stance on issues most closely matches that of Traditional Witchcraft, but would love input/suggestions to books, links or what-have-you...so that I can continue studying.
My current belief-set...
- I believe in an ultimate power. An ultimate Creator or Universal energy. A source from whence everything has come.
- I don't like the idea of multiple dieties. To me this complicates things unnecessarily. Putting names on dieties, seems too limiting, IMO. In prayers to our Creator, I don't call him/her/it anything in particular...this doesn't bother me.
- I believer that spirit is in everything and that we are all connected.
- I believe in witchcraft and magic...I know it works...and works, well. I don't like fancy spells, or rituals or any of that stuff though. The less detail, the more focus and to-the-point...the better for me.
- I believe in signs, symbols and the idea that there are no coincidences in this life.
- I believe in being responsible for my own actions. Though beautiful, I don't agree with the Wiccan Rede. Just seems, impractical for me. I do have however; a strict set of my own morals...a moral code. Though I was raised with the idea of return (what you send out you'll get back x whatever)...I also, don't hold to that concept.
- I do believe that using magic draws the attention of the universe, in general...and one had better be prepared for that attention which may be positive or negative...one will never truly be able to know the result of an action. Magic is neither good nor evil, nor is the universe or what you can get flung at you. (Well, there are exceptions but anyhow...)
- I feel completely close to nature. That is where I am at my best. I've been told that I have an incredible green thumb...and I guess yes...I do. Animals like me...and I adore them. I feel that nature and all of it's creatures are sacred. I could literally spend all of my time in the outdoors, around plants animals, woods... manmade things seem to stifle me...hate being indoors. Winters are hard on me.
Ok...that should help a little. Input please!! I am rather scattered right now...and need a kick in the butt, to get going again. I'm feeling a bit "lost" and wandering a bit. I hate that!!
Words of wisdom....anyone?
Thanks so much!!
Iora
It seems that I'm a bit scattered right now, and could use some outside guidance & input. So here I am, with hat in hand...or is that cat in hand? ;) :lol: Anyways, I don't feel that this is of critical enough nature to put in the peer counselors area...hope I haven't screwed up!!
Bear with me...I can be excruciatingly long-winded!!!
I grew up in the traditional fundamentalist Christian household...and to this day...ALL my family members remain Christians. I never quite fit in with my beliefs...always questioning....and disturbed by the contradictions and items that just didn't jive with me or my own beliefs. Through my life, I've searched and dug into varying ideas..and always got lead back (pulled back) to the "occult." It wasn't until we met two dear people, however, that I "dared" consider Wicca or Witchcraft.
Meeting them is/was truly a blessing. Not only for their friendship...but, for the result of interaction with them...I wasn't floating listlessly anymore. Interestingly enough, right before I met them, I had made myself sit down and write what I believed. My OWN personal beliefs regardless of how "right" or "wrong" they seemed. I was amazed by the similarities of my beliefs to that of Wicca's..which is what my two friends are.
I also discovered that I had been performing off-the-cuff and spur-of-the-moment witchcraft most of my life. I began to study Wicca with materials lent to me by my dear friends. I was in HEAVEN!!! I could NOT get enough.
I also discovered that sleepy abilities were roaring to life...just amazingly so. (Odd/weird abilites were something we grew up around...as odd as that may sound!! Though Christian, we were introduced to many Wicca-type principals...lore, "superstitions", everyday acts and etc.) I studied Wicca for around 4 months or so, and unfortunately had to come to terms with the fact that I was NOT a Wiccan. A Witch...ya, probably so ....but, definitely not Wiccan.
I had to come clean with my friends/mentors/teacher...though I adore everything that I've learned, and love Wicca...it is a beautiful walk...it is just not for me.
So, I'm back on my own....which is not a bad thing. I love researching and finding things on my own but, I feel I'm rather drifting. No, I don't blame this on my friends. I just don't quite know where I fit in (haven't for a long time actually...and OH, the various things/religions I have studied in my search).
I believe that my stance on issues most closely matches that of Traditional Witchcraft, but would love input/suggestions to books, links or what-have-you...so that I can continue studying.
My current belief-set...
- I believe in an ultimate power. An ultimate Creator or Universal energy. A source from whence everything has come.
- I don't like the idea of multiple dieties. To me this complicates things unnecessarily. Putting names on dieties, seems too limiting, IMO. In prayers to our Creator, I don't call him/her/it anything in particular...this doesn't bother me.
- I believer that spirit is in everything and that we are all connected.
- I believe in witchcraft and magic...I know it works...and works, well. I don't like fancy spells, or rituals or any of that stuff though. The less detail, the more focus and to-the-point...the better for me.
- I believe in signs, symbols and the idea that there are no coincidences in this life.
- I believe in being responsible for my own actions. Though beautiful, I don't agree with the Wiccan Rede. Just seems, impractical for me. I do have however; a strict set of my own morals...a moral code. Though I was raised with the idea of return (what you send out you'll get back x whatever)...I also, don't hold to that concept.
- I do believe that using magic draws the attention of the universe, in general...and one had better be prepared for that attention which may be positive or negative...one will never truly be able to know the result of an action. Magic is neither good nor evil, nor is the universe or what you can get flung at you. (Well, there are exceptions but anyhow...)
- I feel completely close to nature. That is where I am at my best. I've been told that I have an incredible green thumb...and I guess yes...I do. Animals like me...and I adore them. I feel that nature and all of it's creatures are sacred. I could literally spend all of my time in the outdoors, around plants animals, woods... manmade things seem to stifle me...hate being indoors. Winters are hard on me.
Ok...that should help a little. Input please!! I am rather scattered right now...and need a kick in the butt, to get going again. I'm feeling a bit "lost" and wandering a bit. I hate that!!
Words of wisdom....anyone?
Thanks so much!!
Iora