this will probably sound pathetic

[Vasen]

as said this will sound pathetic but i just need to talk to some one this doesn't directly involve, and that basically leaves every one one here.

the thing is ever since i was about 13 i have beeen acting to impress all my family, friends, ever one really. i have never been my self but when i got with my ex-girlfriend (the person who got me imto paganism) she convinced me to start being myself, stop analysing every thing i say and do before i do them incase i upset some one.

but now i have began being myself im scared. im scared because im distancing myself from my friends who claim not to know me any more. im scared because my family are beginning to hate me. im scared mostly because im scared of myself because i dont know where this is leading.

i guess i just need to be assured that this is the right thing to do or to be told if it isnt?

[Jolixte]

You have a pm. If this has changed as to where I'm not supposed to do this, let me know.

[Thorferrer]

nope, everythings good. FWIW, almost sounds like you're describing me for most of my life. I might be of use if you want to talk to an "ex-anylitical worry about too much" junky

[lady Reddragon]

If you truly believe paganisim is right for you then you need to stick with it. It is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. And if you so called friends were really your friends they would accept you for who you are not who they want you to be. As for family they should love you no matter what.

[gurlygurl2004]

Don't be scared to lose those friends. Once your truthful you'll have real friends.

[Flar's Freyja]

If you want to elicit giggles from everyone in the room, go to a pagan gathering and say, "I've never fit in."

We have ALL been there - and developmentally, you are going through a horribly painful stage in your life. I'm glad you've reached out here, and if necessary, please think about getting professiona counseling for a little while.

Goddess bless!