Sophia...

[Silverwings]

AH, lady, I need help

I need to get out of this rut, but what do I do? Which way do I go? I need some help. Any kind would be nice, I'll take what I can get.

[Silverwings]

Thank you lady, for showing me what I had to do
For giving me strength to continue after making a hard choice
and for granting me a humbling experience

*leaves a few sea shell on the alter*

[Silverwings]

GAH! I need a bit of help again, (I'm needy I know, sorry) I can't seem to think straight anymore, I try to rationalize things but that only makes the fog thicker. So, all I need, is a flashlight, to help me see straight in the situations of my life, any help would be lovely.

Things are so confusing lately, people say one thing and do another and it confuses me sooo much. Half of it is me being lost in my realtionships with people, the other half is not wanting to see. Time for me to buckle down and accept, won't be pretty, but it will be done.

*lays a small crystal sphere on the alter*

[Tabby]

*huggles you tight* I love you sis..don't forget it. If you ever need to talk, remember I am here for you..

[Silverwings]

*hugs tight* I know sis

[Silverwings]

Things are a little out of hand right now, I have learned of things that should hurt me, but they don't. I can't feel the pain, but I can feel the joy of talking with my good friends. I have been given rare moments of peace which I am definately in need of. I think right now, in the peace of my own room, everything is just alright :) Thank you

[Silverwings]

I can't believe I'm saying it, but thank you for letting me clean out my house today

My mood has been the reflection of my house, lately. Dirty clothes everywhere, dust on the counters and dressers, a messy book shelf, an unmade bed, everything just translates over to my moods. My intelligence is cluttered, my judgement is being clouded, my emotions are way out of hand. When I was cleaning, getting things done, making my alters alters again and not cluttered shelfs...I felt so much better. The weight has lifted somewhat, but just like how my house STILL isn't completely clean, my mind isn't completely soothed. It is a good start however, a very very good start :)

*sets down some feathers*

[Silverwings]

*cries and prays and cries*

Please, please, let nothing bad happen

[Silverwings]

I am dead on the inside, I feel nothing and want for nothing

and I hate it

*lights a candle and leaves*

[Silverwings]

*lays down a large chunk of onyx*
...never again...

*keens for a bit then leaves*

[Silverwings]

hmmm, what a sticky situation this is...

...another test for me eh? so be it.

[Tabby]

*hugs* Lil sis..it will be okay.

[Silverwings]

hmmm, what do I want anymore? Everything is just a random mess, perfect chaos, perhaps it's time for me to find a light switch *burns some incense*