alesay
December 17th, 2004, 09:28 PM
Is breaking up ever easy? because if it is, and there is a "breaking up for dummies" book, i need to get it. Honesty is the best policy. So here's my story: *Bill is the perfect guy. Good job, good car, good manners, doesn't talk much (which is annoying) sooo respectful... and fun... Treats me like a goddess... But there is no attraction. I have this thing where i can tell, if i kiss them, or touch them, i can know. If they're "the one" because lets face it. When you're in the dating stage, you're either consciously or subconciously looking for "the one" not mister right now, but mister potentially long term. And bill, wasn't it. I knew it... But to my friends advice and trying to convince myself, you can "learn to like someone". That's what i thought. Why not, we're having fun and i was totally up front and said i can't jump into anything serious because i've been screwed lately. HAHA Insert *Jeff. Jeff i've known since i was 16 (i'm 21now) and he went into the military blah blah blah. well i see him like 2 weeks ago as i'm out with Bill. We caught up, talked... and i dunno... it was nice talking to him. But, he called my bluff... My "game" with bill. I didn't think i was playing a game i was honest with him. But jeff said exactly what i was thinking. I can't keep doing this to bill because i know i'm not going to like him romantically, so i should break it off because that's what's fair. For both of us... So i did... and he took it like a champ. Of course not happy, but he took it gracefully and said "ok if that's how you feel" so here i am... flyin solo again, and kinda relieved. You can't "be seeing someone" and still be attracted to other people... that's not ok... :( So i did it... and now.... I feel bad.... But, it's for the best....
Thanks for listening to my rant :D
Thanks for listening to my rant :D