i'm a liar and i'm sorry

[lil_suzie]

Ok I know nobody realy ever reads the profiles but I feel bad
because I lied in mine when I joined MW because I wanted to seem
ok like a normal person. I put under hobbies that I hang out
with my friends but it's a lie, I don't have any friends, I dont
hang out with anyone I just work all the time and the kids always
think I'm wierd and laughs at me all the time, they all hate me
and play tricks on me, they throw dirt at me and spit on me.
I'm sorry that I lied to you all but I just wanted to pretend
that everything was ok for alittle while.
I did it in a few posts to, said I had friends or talked about
them I made it all up and I'm sorry.

[Earthy]

Sweetheart, nobody is going to hate you because of that.
I will quite willingly admit the only friends i have are the ones i met on here.
Nobody will hate you :hugz:

[*Rain*]

You do hang out with friends, you hang out with us on here.

Maybe if you wanted to meet up with people IRL you could join a club or start a course or something.

[alesay]

There was a really long time where that's all i did was chat online and really, my only friends were online... There is nothing wrong with how you feel... No one is going to hate you! :) Though we're glad you told us the truth, only because i'm sure it was eating away at you :) Don't worry!!! We love you for you :)

[Pagan Taoist]

Kiddo this post makes me want to give you a big :hugz: and tell you what a wonderful person you are. Granted I don't know you that well, but there is no reason to justify spitting, mud slinging, and tormenting you. I doubt anyone is going to hate you or even fuss at you for this, and I'm in agreement that at least you told the truth. I'm sure you're a beautiful kid that is just horribly under appreciated because you walk to the beat of a different drum. Be strong, don't sweat the small stuff, and remember we are here for you when you need to vent or want some advice.

[lil_suzie]

Thank you all for being so nice, don't worry I'm ok with the
whole thing, I dont realy mind not having any freinds I just
wish everyone would just leave me be somtimes and let me alone.
But I'm actualy a pretty happy person usualy, I'm happy with
my life, I didnt mean to sound like I was uspet about it I had
just forgoten that I had put that in my profile and only realised
it today and felt bad because your all so nice and I didnt want
to lie to anyone about it, you don;t need to to feel bad for
me 'cause I dont! lol

[Earthy]

:hugz:

[trippingdaisy]

Its making me cry just thinking about the fact that some people find doing that to another human being is entertaining. sweetie, no-one is going to hate you for what you did. I did something similar when I was at school.-hell, I even convinced myself of it sometimes- how nice a person you are isnt based on how many friends you have, though you seem to realise that already.
I hope these kids grow up and leave you alone though, hon. you dont deserve that. :hugz:

[WingedTigerChild]

I don't have any friends either, so don't feel so bad. We can all be friendless together. :smile: Yeah, all my friends left to go away to school during this past summer, so I'm all alone...hehe. Not that I really mind it all that much. :hugz:

Edit to add: I'd touch your karma, Suzie, but for some reason, I'm not able to...? :confused: I think maybe I need to give out some karma to other people or something first...:whatgives

[Mindflayer]

Thank you all for being so nice, don't worry I'm ok with the
whole thing, I dont realy mind not having any freinds I just
wish everyone would just leave me be somtimes and let me alone.
But I'm actualy a pretty happy person usualy, I'm happy with
my life, I didnt mean to sound like I was uspet about it I had
just forgoten that I had put that in my profile and only realised
it today and felt bad because your all so nice and I didnt want
to lie to anyone about it, you don;t need to to feel bad for
me 'cause I dont! lol
Just make sure you stay happy with yourself...

People can be rude and hurtful, especially teenagers... just remember though, that in 5 years or so, none if it will mean jack... so be happy :)

[WingedTigerChild]

Get an invisible friend! I have two! :ghost: :ghost:

[Faery-Wings]

But I'm actualy a pretty happy person usualy, I'm happy with
my life,

Honey, thatis all that matters. :)

[SacredWithin]

Don't worry abut it lil suzie.

[Calen]

Isn't the truth liberating?
That you're happy is all that matters. I was teased when I was younger, and it sucked. Remember what an awesome person you are, that you are honest with yourself, and that you do have friends...on hurrr!
:hugz:

[2-G]

It's ok... I'm 15, and I first made friends(as much as normal people) in 7th grade. Most people don't like my appearence(though I lost 20 pounds and shocked everyone, I can safely say I'm fat, but I'm going to a gym. I wear alot of bandshirts, and word got out late 7th-early 8th that I'm a Pagan so everyone tells me I worship Satan or prey to evil spirits) and some(few) may even call me a poseur(poseur.... what a mythical word...)

I have a grip on how horrid alot of people are, and I'm sorry you have to experience their hideous ways. *hug* I'm glad you're happy with your life, and I hope you find some sort of comfort from this board. Everyone here seems to be cool with you, if I do say so myself^_- , though it's probably not the same as real life.(like somebody said earlier, maybe you could call someone or meet them IRL) Keep your head up, sweetie.

[Teresa]

:hugz: You have friends here.Your honesty is refreshing and I applaud You for the desire to straighten things out!

[Goddess Rhiannon]

You are hanging out with friends....so case closed as far as I am concerned.

[Shanti]

Hon I love you just the way you are.
The kids that pick on you...they can just go ...eat a STORE bought egg!!! Hehehe
I admire you so darn much. They have no clue how special you are but they dont need to know. You know, your dad does and the critters do.
They are not nice people and you sure as hell are.
Heck they need to go do some work and care for something. They are missing out.

Dont worrie hon...its ok. :)

[BabblingImp]

I'm sorry, I haven't been good with friends either, but you know what? It will get better! Become your own freind first and you will find others will come to you, I found that out, so be true to yourself, and the right people will come! (P.S It's not a totoal lie beacuse I'm sure you have freinds here! and well you hang out here! think about it that way!)

[Verthandi]

:hugz: You are with friends. And as to those idiots that are mean to you, I say forget them. I was teased a lot in high school, but you know what? I'm making something of myself while most of them are still stuck in the tiny hellhole of my hometown. Just keep reminding yourself that you're a better person than they are and you'll go farther than them in life.

[lilromantyc]

I'm sorry those kids can't see what a great person you are. They're not worth it. You have friends here, so don't fret. We don't hate you.

[diamondtiger]

Thank you all for being so nice, don't worry I'm ok with the
whole thing, I dont realy mind not having any freinds I just
wish everyone would just leave me be somtimes and let me alone.
But I'm actualy a pretty happy person usualy, I'm happy with
my life, I didnt mean to sound like I was uspet about it I had
just forgoten that I had put that in my profile and only realised
it today and felt bad because your all so nice and I didnt want
to lie to anyone about it, you don;t need to to feel bad for
me 'cause I dont! lolFirst of all, forgive me if this sounds a bit harsh, I've never been good at “sugar coating” things.

Suzie, I don't feel sorry/bad for you. I feel sorry for them. You, I can empathize with, because we've all been there at some point in our lives. Those of us who feel the pain can learn from it and grow. For this, I see you (and many others) as “lucky”. Those who do these terrible things are the ones I feel sorrow/pity for. For they are the ones who are truly lacking.

Suzie, I'm glad you felt bad enough to admit your mistake (and that is all it really was). It takes a certain level of compassion and maturity to be so brave. You most definitely have my utmost respect for possessing/showing this. As for those who treat you, or anyone, so shamefully wrong... just remember, it's their loss not yours. If they can't see the wonderful person that you are, then have pity on them and be glad that you don't call them “friend”. Nobody needs a “friend” like that.

:hugz: sweetie. For what it's worth, I'd me more than happy to call you my friend. :D

[Dashifen]

:hugz:

I don't konw you that well, but your honesty in this post and your candor in others have shown you to be a wonderful person. Don't worry about what others think. You can't control or event really change their perception of you. What you can control is your perception of yourself, which seems quite healthy to me.

And I have only one friend. Good thing I'm marrying her!

Blessings,
~D~

[Faeawyn]

Its so sad that some people need to make others feel bad, in order to feel good about themselves. But thats all it is sweetie....it's a bunch of people trying to feel better about their lousy lives by making you feel bad about yours....and they try so hard to fit in and not be singled out by the crowd, that they join them instead. They see you as a target, and once you've been marked, they just don't seem to give up. The truth is, when they all become adults, they usually feel terrible about the hurt they caused others....or they wind up divorced because of they're rotten attitude and all alone.
Believe it or not, you'll become so strong from this that you'll be able to deal with anything life throws at you....and adults can see the kindness in others and you'll have tons of friends. For now, you have us :hugz:

[Valkie]

Ignore them... I can't say what I usually do about kids... don't want to get the thread closed.. but when it comes to school and trying to be cool, most kids are asses and are not worth your time or energy to deal with them.

[johenn123]

honey, you have friends here :hug: no one judges you coz you made a lil white lie, promise!

[semi]

lil suzie, based on what I've read in your posts I've always thought you were cool. I've always thought that it would be great to work on a farm with the animals and the earth and all that. And it takes a lot of hard work to do that, too. I have admired and respected you right from the start.

As far as friends, first, all you need is you. You are the person you have to spend the rest of your life with, you know what I mean? So as long as you're happy with yourself, it doesn't matter what other people think. Second, you have about 13,000 friends right here who accept you the way you are. Peace and love and hugs to you, my friend.

[Flar's Freyja]

Ok I know nobody realy ever reads the profiles but I feel bad
because I lied in mine when I joined MW because I wanted to seem
ok like a normal person. I put under hobbies that I hang out
with my friends but it's a lie, I don't have any friends, I dont
hang out with anyone I just work all the time and the kids always
think I'm wierd and laughs at me all the time, they all hate me
and play tricks on me, they throw dirt at me and spit on me.
I'm sorry that I lied to you all but I just wanted to pretend
that everything was ok for alittle while.
I did it in a few posts to, said I had friends or talked about
them I made it all up and I'm sorry.

One of the neat things about being online is we can be whoever we want, and as long as we are not misrepresenting ourselves (like 'internet high priestesses' who read a book and are now qualified to run an online coven - sheesh) in a way that would harm others, I see nothing wrong with it.

LOL, people here at MW think I'm a wonderful, strong, caring person - and while that may be true - y'all don't live with me and see the side that is selfish, weak, impatient and irritable.

Sometimes, by being who we wish/know we can be, we may make it come true through the good old self-fulfilling prophecy.

I'm sorry you're having a hard time. You'll find that most pagans grew up feeling out of place all the way into adulthood. I've actually been attacked for my better qualities - intelligence and education!

While we're not perfect, finding other pagans is like finding your way home.

[soilsigh aingeal]

:hugz:

[Pure Ahimsa]

Yes, you do have friends. Mysticwicks is a Pagan Community, we are all family and friends, even though some people may hostily debate, but we are a big family of friends. Just pm anyone if you want to talk,
Love

[Fang of Loki]

First of all, forgive me if this sounds a bit harsh, I've never been good at “sugar coating” things.

Suzie, I don't feel sorry/bad for you. I feel sorry for them. You, I can empathize with, because we've all been there at some point in our lives. Those of us who feel the pain can learn from it and grow. For this, I see you (and many others) as “lucky”. Those who do these terrible things are the ones I feel sorrow/pity for. For they are the ones who are truly lacking.

Suzie, I'm glad you felt bad enough to admit your mistake (and that is all it really was). It takes a certain level of compassion and maturity to be so brave. You most definitely have my utmost respect for possessing/showing this. As for those who treat you, or anyone, so shamefully wrong... just remember, it's their loss not yours. If they can't see the wonderful person that you are, then have pity on them and be glad that you don't call them “friend”. Nobody needs a “friend” like that.

:hugz: sweetie. For what it's worth, I'd me more than happy to call you my friend. :D


I couldn't have put my point as well as you did, DiamondTiger.

I agree with you 100%.

[BabblingImp]

Kids or people were never outwardly mean to me (I think they are truly afraid of me!) And Lil_Suizie that might be why they are that way with you too, and just remember that "what comes around goes around" It will happen maybe not in this life but the next! (When I feel really upset at someone I just think to myself "Karma paybacks are hell" Really! it just makes me feel better, like I don't have to be mean to them, thats all!)

[novena]

You need never misrepresent yourself to try to get other people to like you, especially here! So please don't be so hard on yourself. I think the outpouring of messages on this thread shows you just how much you are valued here. :)

[Abren]

:hugz:

[Starbaby]

I don't know you that well either, but from your posts, I have to say that you are a remarkable young woman!! You work on the farm, you cook, and you do alot of things that alot of grown ups can't do. Kids can be so cruel, especially when someone doesn't fit their "mold", or when someone is different from them.
You needn't worry about that here. We are all a Huge group of family and friends, and we love your differences. That's what makes us all unique.
Stay strong and don't let anyone bring you down. You have a lot going for you!!
((hugs))

[WarriorZhanna]

Awww...... honey, it's okay. Don't worry 'bout that. I'll be your friend! :hugz: :)

[Suzy-Anne]

its alright. Everyone goes through the same thing. Usually. I myself and ridiculed nonstop by the... Subhumans at my school. Of course I usually kick them in the balls or stab them with a mechanical pencil... Although you shoudn't do that, because its not cool. o_o; Back to the subject, kids are just not nice (I'm trying not to cuss. D: ) So yeah, you'll make friends eventually. Like I only have a few very good friends. So yeah. But its not like it was a huge lie liek you were really a necrophilic maniac n probation from rape.... So yeah, its all good.

[SSanf]

rotten attitude and all alone.
Uh...I want to butt in here a bit. Some of us are alone because we actually like it that way.

Being alone has some great advantages. You don't have to make any of the necessary compromises that not being alone entails. You can be quite selfish and self indulgent without hurting anyone else.

You can eat what you like, ice cream right out of the carton is neat. You can sleep when you are tired, yourself. The heat and lights are the way you like them. You don't have to be nice to someone else's family during the holidays, like them or not. You can spend your vacation where you want to. You can spend your money the way you think best with no regard for someone else's needs.

Fact is, many people are alone not because they are rotten but because they like it that way. In fact, I think studies have shown single women are among the happiest of the population.

[OriginalWacky]

Sweetheart, you DO have friends. Right here.

Thank you for admitting what you said wasn't true. That took a LOT of guts, and I for one applaud you.

[lil_suzie]

Aww you guys are so awesome! :hugz:
And your all right I'm not gonna let them bother me, they have there
own ideas about what makes a person good and I got mine and
so what if they are to dumb to know better, I'm just gonna keep doing
what I do and not worry about what they do.
I'm prolly happier then them anyway so what else matters?
Thanks for making me feel better about it your posts mean alot to
me and I'm gonna check back here and read them when I get lonely,
becuase I think of you all as "friends" LOL.

[charmedkisses1]

You do hang out with friends, you hang out with us on here.

Maybe if you wanted to meet up with people IRL you could join a club or start a course or something.
yeah! do you have any interests? youd be surprised how many group/clubs there are!

[lil_suzie]

I do have intrests, I guess but I don't have any time to join any
clubs I used to be in 4-H but had to stop going because I didn't
have time for it anymore and the projects cost to much, besides
I hated having to present anyway, I stutter and talking to groups
makes it worse. I dont even realy want to find any friends right
now anyway, they seem liek more trouble then there worth sometimes,
I always see people fighting with there friends and talking behind
there backs, I'd rather that people insult me to my face LOL.

[violet rain]

awww sweetie don't feel bad...All of my friends are on this website :) and there the best :) and hey you wanna be friends? (huggss)

[lil_suzie]

:hugz:

[charmedkisses1]

I'm glad you're here lil_suzie :hugz:

[fireswimmer]

I am so sorry that you are in such pain! I know that talking on line is easier than face to face but I think you might want to look into joining a group with your interests. I am not sure how old you are. I know that I did not come out of my shell until college. Once I was out, forget about it, I shattered the shell and have not looked back. It was worth it!

[fireswimmer]

I do have intrests, I guess but I don't have any time to join any
clubs I used to be in 4-H but had to stop going because I didn't
have time for it anymore and the projects cost to much, besides
I hated having to present anyway, I stutter and talking to groups
makes it worse. I dont even realy want to find any friends right
now anyway, they seem liek more trouble then there worth sometimes,
I always see people fighting with there friends and talking behind
there backs, I'd rather that people insult me to my face LOL.

I should have read more of the thread before quickly replying. Friends are quite worthwhile if you choose the right ones. I would be a mess without mine. They are worth the investment.

[charmedkisses1]

I should have read more of the thread before quickly replying. Friends are quite worthwhile if you choose the right ones. I would be a mess without mine. They are worth the investment.


lol yes, they are, even if they annoy/hurt you sometimes, the good far outweighs the bad.