A new year coming.

[juelle]

I thank you Goddess for all you've shown me in my life, all my lessons learned, even some that have been painfull.

I have lost four people i love in the past six months, three to death, a long time lover, a best friend both killed in an accident, a cousin a week ago to suicide. And the one who I thought from the very first second I saw him, that he is my love. He hasn't spoken to me in three weeks. He says he doesn't want to again. He told me he loved me, yet had caused me too much pain. I miss him.

Each day seems like a struggle, an obsession and i want to be free of the pain and learn from this, if he is never to return please guide me to accept this and find happiness in some other form....

I am lost, please help me, now i'm facing the worry of losing my job as well.

Please be with me now, send me comfort and help me learn what i am to learn in this.

Please allow Gord to find peace with himself, with the things he did to me, with the pain he's in and the pain i'm in without him in my life. Please help him to be truthfull, not only with himself but others. Please guide us to the paths that we are meant to find, whether it be together or apart. And please keep us both safe.

Please bless those that have passed, and let them continue to show me signs of their presence.

Please help me to love myself, and feel love coming from others.

I ask this of you in my time of need, with the courage you have given me so far to go on.

Thank you.

[kissesree]

Beautyfull:nonono:

[juelle]

I asked for a dream, and i slept with his picture near...

In my dream we were together, but i could feel his distance, and when i turned he left... And on his pillow a bracelet, made of hemp, and it was a protection bracelet i'd made for him, that he had removed, and fled. I'm trying to figure out this meaning, since i never actually made a bracelet for him.

My ex that passed was in it too, just sitting... watching.

I want to know what this meant, but i am blocked.

I read some of the other's posts. So many going through this same lesson.
Love is so hard.
So strong.

Send me the power to love myself Goddess.
Bless me with the ability to love others and forgive the wrongs done to me.

Bless Gord with the power to release his resentments, and love without selfishness.

Thank you.

[juelle]

Another death is happening, within the next 12 hours one of my favorite aunts will have her 'plug pulled' and will pass.

She taught me to find you Goddess, and she taught me the tarot and about karma.

Thank you for bringing her into my life, and thank you for the blessings i had in being a friend of hers.

Please send me strength to get through yet another loss in my life this month.

Please be with her, and guide her gently through the transition and please please let her know how loved she was while here.

[juelle]

please please please please Goddess, guide me to what i must do.
Guide me to know what's right.

Help me to let him go.

Please Goddess remove his fears and help him learn.

Please help me get over this pain and loss