pathfinder
December 31st, 2004, 08:05 PM
I was outside alone at night, it was winter around midnight. I was out that night amongst the trees, one of them my power tree for so long, seeking contact with elementals, spirits, totems, elves/faeries, enything and everything of a gentle nature and of a different world. I had been going through an extreemly hard time then, my world was all in pieces, and everything I thought to be true turned out a lie. So I suppose I was seeking help, too, and even love, as I had never truly felt it in my life till then. So I started by smuging myself, and offering the sage to the 6 sacred directions, and then I ingested the sage like a toke to calm and cleanse inside, too. I then just sat against my power tree at that time, and closed my eyes for a bit until I was in an altered state. Oh my how beautiful every single thing looks, and how very different, when in that state! As I sat there, I turned my attention to the tree behind me, supporting me. I heard my heart beating in my ears, and a second later, I heard a second beat, one different then my own, and I felt a pulsing in my hands, up arms, and down my torso, where it then went to my feet, and back into the earth. Soon my heart beat with it, and I felt I was one with the tree behind me and the earth beneath me.
Then I stopped seeing that moment, and I was suddenly struggling to break free from some awful confinement, and then, having done so with tremendous effort, I pushed and pushed with all my might towards something, though what at that moment, in this vision, I did not know, and then with great, painful strides, I break the surface, and feel such radiance and love beaming down on me from above that I continue to reach, streaching out my limbs, while simutaniously pushing my roots deep, deep into the flesh of my great mother, seeking stability and streangth...and in a flash then I saw many, many images. Times of long ago and recent, and even some things of the future, I believe, or of what a future will be if all things continue as they are.
After that, I got up from that spot, and went a little deeper into the trees, until I came to the one that I always called the "faery tree". I don't know why I went that way, I was still in an altered state, you know, where the higher self is in the driver's seat, so to speak. I started to hum a strange melody, and then I voiced it aloud, just a melody, no words with it. My body rocked back and forth, and then stopped as the melody stopped. And then I started to chant words that I have never heard before, and do not to this day remember or know. But as I chanted, my voice grew stronger and louder, and the wind, too also picked up, and my hair swirled above me like a great tornado, and then I stopped, as did the wind, and I slumped, completely drained, to the ground, the branch of the "faery tree" catching me just in time, else I'd have probably bruised my bum! Not even a month later, I met and was swept away, literally, by my now husband. We got pregnant soon after being together, and I am away from every external source of evil that used to haunt and hurt me since conception it seems. Has anyone else had any such powerful, life altering experiences when dealing with ritual and contact??
Then I stopped seeing that moment, and I was suddenly struggling to break free from some awful confinement, and then, having done so with tremendous effort, I pushed and pushed with all my might towards something, though what at that moment, in this vision, I did not know, and then with great, painful strides, I break the surface, and feel such radiance and love beaming down on me from above that I continue to reach, streaching out my limbs, while simutaniously pushing my roots deep, deep into the flesh of my great mother, seeking stability and streangth...and in a flash then I saw many, many images. Times of long ago and recent, and even some things of the future, I believe, or of what a future will be if all things continue as they are.
After that, I got up from that spot, and went a little deeper into the trees, until I came to the one that I always called the "faery tree". I don't know why I went that way, I was still in an altered state, you know, where the higher self is in the driver's seat, so to speak. I started to hum a strange melody, and then I voiced it aloud, just a melody, no words with it. My body rocked back and forth, and then stopped as the melody stopped. And then I started to chant words that I have never heard before, and do not to this day remember or know. But as I chanted, my voice grew stronger and louder, and the wind, too also picked up, and my hair swirled above me like a great tornado, and then I stopped, as did the wind, and I slumped, completely drained, to the ground, the branch of the "faery tree" catching me just in time, else I'd have probably bruised my bum! Not even a month later, I met and was swept away, literally, by my now husband. We got pregnant soon after being together, and I am away from every external source of evil that used to haunt and hurt me since conception it seems. Has anyone else had any such powerful, life altering experiences when dealing with ritual and contact??