sadness, confusion... lost

[Æon Flux]

Sadness: My mother told me yesterday that unless I go to live with my father she'll have to move away from her boyfriend. She is blaming all the problems in her life on me... I can't take that anymore. I cannot be blamed for everything. Even I am not made of stone.

Confusion: Four men in the same band. I like them all.

One of them I have been crushing on, he told me through txt message that he is not interested in having any other relationship then a friendlike one with me. I can accept that since I do not have a crush on me anymore. Still... he keeps flirting, touching my ass, hugging me... talking to me about everything.

Another one is caring even though he does not need to be. More caring when I am sad then anyone else.

Lost: In all this I have no one to truly turn to. I listen to other people's problems but when I need help it's nowhere to be found. I feel alone, unwanted and useless. Things that would have cheered me up today, like meeting the two men mentioned earlier, just made me more depressed, especially since I could not keep my mouth shut about my current situation and almost started to cry.

I need to vent...

[sarabethv]

Sweetie. You can vent to me - feel free to e mail me. sarabethv@hotmail.com

Have you talked to your dad? Does he want you to come live with him? The situation you are in with you Mom does not sound good. It might be better to get out of it. So call Dad and ask him about living with him. You don't say how old you are but I am assuming that you are too young to live on your own. Are there other relatives you are close to? Contact them.

As for the guys - honey, the crush thing never stops no matter how old you are. I am myself in a similar situation. I really love this guy who thinks of me as a friend. However, the ones who are touching and grabbing your ass - that is beyond friendship. Back away cause what he is saying is that he doesn't want anything serious even though he is obviously attracted. As for the others, well what girl doesn't like the guys in the band? Again back away - the guy that follows, if only as a friend is the one who really cares.

Right now, you don't need the extra issue of boyfriend angst with all that is going on in your life. Easy to say - not so easy to live. Take care and know that my best wishes are with you.

[Æon Flux]

Sweetie. You can vent to me - feel free to e mail me. sarabethv@hotmail.com

Have you talked to your dad? Does he want you to come live with him? The situation you are in with you Mom does not sound good. It might be better to get out of it. So call Dad and ask him about living with him. You don't say how old you are but I am assuming that you are too young to live on your own. Are there other relatives you are close to? Contact them.

As for the guys - honey, the crush thing never stops no matter how old you are. I am myself in a similar situation. I really love this guy who thinks of me as a friend. However, the ones who are touching and grabbing your ass - that is beyond friendship. Back away cause what he is saying is that he doesn't want anything serious even though he is obviously attracted. As for the others, well what girl doesn't like the guys in the band? Again back away - the guy that follows, if only as a friend is the one who really cares.

Right now, you don't need the extra issue of boyfriend angst with all that is going on in your life. Easy to say - not so easy to live. Take care and know that my best wishes are with you.

Thank you.

I am 18, although I am still in school and 6 months away from graduating for High-school. I don't want to drop out just so I can get a place to live in by myself... becuase that would mean almost 3 years in school was worth nothing.

And thanks for the advice on the boys as well... I needed that I believe. :hugz:

[soilsigh aingeal]

:hugz: That's a tough situation. If you're dad or any other family member can help you out, I say go for it, I'm sorry that's happening to you. I also agree with sarabethy about the guys, step away from the flirter, it may lead to something destructive. :hugz:

[Æon Flux]

:hugz: That's a tough situation. If you're dad or any other family member can help you out, I say go for it, I'm sorry that's happening to you. I also agree with sarabethy about the guys, step away from the flirter, it may lead to something destructive. :hugz:

Thank you.

Yes... hopefully some options will open up. Saddest thing was that today I actually questioned my own existance, wishing I'd never been born, which is highly unlike me.

[soilsigh aingeal]

Thank you.

Yes... hopefully some options will open up. Saddest thing was that today I actually questioned my own existance, wishing I'd never been born, which is highly unlike me.:hugz: I know that very feeling. And then the "this isn't me" feeling that follows. I hope things start to look up for you.

[Æon Flux]

Things might be looking up in some ways. And in other ways it doesn't. I don't know. I just feel like renting a bunch of movies and just cuddle up in my sofa and not care anymore....

[trippingdaisy]

*tripping daisy gives njorun alma a big, fat hug and tells her everything is going to be alright*

I know it doesnt seem like that now, but it will. and never be afraid to ask for help, if you need it. I know the feeling of your entire life being in chaos, and it isnt a pleasant one. I hope it gets sorted as quickly as possible :hugz:

[HorseCrow]

:hugz:

[Æon Flux]

Confusion: Four men in the same band. I like them all.

One of them I have been crushing on, he told me through txt message that he is not interested in having any other relationship then a friendlike one with me. I can accept that since I do not have a crush on me anymore. Still... he keeps flirting, touching my ass, hugging me... talking to me about everything.

Another one is caring even though he does not need to be. More caring when I am sad then anyone else.

Lost: In all this I have no one to truly turn to. I listen to other people's problems but when I need help it's nowhere to be found. I feel alone, unwanted and useless. Things that would have cheered me up today, like meeting the two men mentioned earlier, just made me more depressed, especially since I could not keep my mouth shut about my current situation and almost started to cry.


These two men are what's bothering me the most right about now.
Especially the one I once was crushing on since I know nothing anymore. He actually sent me a mail wondering if I had anyone to talk to, saying that he thought I looked lonely... after this he is seemingly avoiding me.

The other man I keep bumping into everywhere. And he's being a sweetheart, talking and greeting me with a smile everytime he sees me.

I'm more confused then ever, especially since I have been dreaming about these two guys for a couple of days now. I keep trying to figure out what the dreams mean but I cannot do so. I feel lost and more alone then ever since the only one who SAW how lonely I was seemingly doesn't want to keep me company.