MockingbirdOxygen
January 18th, 2005, 11:48 AM
I just wanted to share with everyone something that dawned on me this morning. Actually, it has been building over the past few days, and I just came up with the idea for this post this morning.
Many of us come online as a way to escape our daily lives. That is all good and well, but if you find yourself becoming attached to this place and its members, you will find, as I have...you can't get away from your life. Because it is here now, too. And life is what it is. On here you will find friends, enemies, and people who don't know you exist even after they've met you.
I got my first red karma the other day, and while it's not a big deal now, it was at the time. (Add to the fact that I was already hormonal, and I actually cried over it :woah: ) I always thought that if I ever got red karma'd, I'd have my feelings hurt so bad that I might leave MW and never come back. Boy, did I learn my lesson...I got offline, then realized I had forgotten to log out, and when I tried, I couldn't get back on to log out because the whole board was having some sort of technical difficulties...it threw me into a panic, and I realized that no way was I going to be able to stay away from MW once they actually got back up and running!
So I got my first negative karma and a good lesson all rolled into one...but that's not all...when I first got that karma, I was upset, and thought, "boy, I'll show her, I'm gonna fling some of that red stuff right back at her". So I pulled up the karma box, typed in something about "thanks for the red karma and confirming my suspicions" and clicked to send it. About a split second after I clicked send, I felt like total crap. I wished I could take it back, because I knew that it wasn't doing anything to make the situation any better...but it turns out...in my rush of anger, I'd forgotten to change the type of karma from giving to taking away, so I really showed her! :rollingla But even though it was an "accident", I don't think it was really...maybe it was intended to happen for me to learn a lesson about how bad I would have felt spreading negative karma; and I actually am glad now that it happened that I sent good karma by mistake! :clapping: I certainly got a good laugh about it, and I hope that she does too if she comes across this post *wink*
So, that's my little story I had to share, and I have one last request: If you liked it, don't karma me for it; (unless you just don't like it, then feel free to give me negative karma, because I've found out that it doesn't hurt so bad after all, and can actually help...) but if it touched you at all, then think back over your time on here and if there is anyone on here to whom you've given red karma, give them a good touch. You don't even have to say anything, just touch it. You will feel so much better about yourself, I promise. If there is someone out there who has made you think about giving them red karma, but you didn't do it...go ahead, give them a good one instead. Just find another post to appreciate and let the love fly.
One other post that figures into my inspiration for this thread: Yesterday I read a post on Martin Luther King, Jr...the member also had written that maybe it was a good time to reflect upon what you yourself had done this year to bring peace into people's lives. I had to admit to myself that whatever I have done is not enough...and that in fact maybe I have actually been the source of conflict for others...so, if I can help spread some peace with this thread, it will be the least that I can do.
I love you guys, and I'm human, too...when I forget these lessons I've learned, as I might, in future moments of pissed-off-ness, a gentle reminder would be appreciated...although I might not like it at the time, I'll thank you for it later. :loveduv:
Many of us come online as a way to escape our daily lives. That is all good and well, but if you find yourself becoming attached to this place and its members, you will find, as I have...you can't get away from your life. Because it is here now, too. And life is what it is. On here you will find friends, enemies, and people who don't know you exist even after they've met you.
I got my first red karma the other day, and while it's not a big deal now, it was at the time. (Add to the fact that I was already hormonal, and I actually cried over it :woah: ) I always thought that if I ever got red karma'd, I'd have my feelings hurt so bad that I might leave MW and never come back. Boy, did I learn my lesson...I got offline, then realized I had forgotten to log out, and when I tried, I couldn't get back on to log out because the whole board was having some sort of technical difficulties...it threw me into a panic, and I realized that no way was I going to be able to stay away from MW once they actually got back up and running!
So I got my first negative karma and a good lesson all rolled into one...but that's not all...when I first got that karma, I was upset, and thought, "boy, I'll show her, I'm gonna fling some of that red stuff right back at her". So I pulled up the karma box, typed in something about "thanks for the red karma and confirming my suspicions" and clicked to send it. About a split second after I clicked send, I felt like total crap. I wished I could take it back, because I knew that it wasn't doing anything to make the situation any better...but it turns out...in my rush of anger, I'd forgotten to change the type of karma from giving to taking away, so I really showed her! :rollingla But even though it was an "accident", I don't think it was really...maybe it was intended to happen for me to learn a lesson about how bad I would have felt spreading negative karma; and I actually am glad now that it happened that I sent good karma by mistake! :clapping: I certainly got a good laugh about it, and I hope that she does too if she comes across this post *wink*
So, that's my little story I had to share, and I have one last request: If you liked it, don't karma me for it; (unless you just don't like it, then feel free to give me negative karma, because I've found out that it doesn't hurt so bad after all, and can actually help...) but if it touched you at all, then think back over your time on here and if there is anyone on here to whom you've given red karma, give them a good touch. You don't even have to say anything, just touch it. You will feel so much better about yourself, I promise. If there is someone out there who has made you think about giving them red karma, but you didn't do it...go ahead, give them a good one instead. Just find another post to appreciate and let the love fly.
One other post that figures into my inspiration for this thread: Yesterday I read a post on Martin Luther King, Jr...the member also had written that maybe it was a good time to reflect upon what you yourself had done this year to bring peace into people's lives. I had to admit to myself that whatever I have done is not enough...and that in fact maybe I have actually been the source of conflict for others...so, if I can help spread some peace with this thread, it will be the least that I can do.
I love you guys, and I'm human, too...when I forget these lessons I've learned, as I might, in future moments of pissed-off-ness, a gentle reminder would be appreciated...although I might not like it at the time, I'll thank you for it later. :loveduv: