May I please get a reading:

[hotrodchick]

I'm going thru a crisis right now. Just lost my job, turned into a drunk, Lost everything I worked for my entire life to my x, My financial status sucks now no thanks to him And I just have no more motivation left. I need some luck. I want to be happy again but I just don't see it. I see myself going to pergatory. Or this is pergatory?

[Bethra]

I will do your reading tonight and P.M. it to you later please state if you mind me posting the results of your reading here so others may read it.

[Bethra]

I have done your reading and sent it Via PM, Please let me know if you mind me posting it here. Hope everything goes well with you

[hotrodchick]

I don't mind if you post it. Thank you :)

**I'm praying this is not bad news because I just can't handle it anymore.

[Bethra]

I did send you the PM last night so you shouls have got it by now I'll post it here anyway incase you can't find the P.M.

Hotrodchick,

Here is your reading I hope this helps you through the troubles you are having at the moment. For furture info we are asking all those who want a reading to P.M. Kaylara and ask for a reading. The reading request will be posted on the guild reader forum and we will pick it up from there. We found the Tarot forum was getting jammed full of requests for readings and no room left for discusion. So if you want another reading do it that way if you can ,it just makes it easier for us thanks.

I have chosen to do a sovereignity spread for you using my arthurian tarot. This spread is good for openeing us up to our own inner realms of awareness. Often when the odds seem stacked against us we need to re-asses ourselves and find true strengnths and weaknesses. Since right now you could really do with some empowerment im hoping this spread will encourage you to embrace the changes that are happennig around you.

1. AIR , the position of intellectual thinking
Grail eight ( the eight of cups )
Right now your thinking seems to be of self pity. Your thoughts are dominated by the discontinuance of plans. This is verified in what you said about everything you ever worked for being lost. There has been a withdrawl of energies and desire , agian verified by your statement about the loss of your ex and financial status. There is a need here to revaluate your thinking from a more universal standpoint. Being an 8 it is only a hestitation along the way. Wallowing in the misery will not help you to do what is needed to pick up the peices of your life and stick them back together again.

2. FIRE , The position of intuition and knowing
The Cauldron ( Temperance )
A powerfull card of the major arcana, this indicates that this is a strong point for you. Your gut instincts guide you well and you can rely on them, if you you will listen to them. Here the cauldron shows the three aspects of the Goddess tending the Cauldron. The crone tends to the fire that heats the caulrdon of knowlede. The mother stirs the contents while the maiden embraces the cauldron and its knowldge. The cauldron represents regeneration. There is no true loss , only change and transmutation in this life. It is the source of spiritual empowerment for those who will step beyond the known into the unkown. It represents regeneration, fusion and recombination of resources and potential. A time to temper outer circumstance with your inner value's. Blend and merge with new ideas and possibility's and correctly balance ones personality. Temperence is needed to get through this, but instinctivly you will know the way.

3. WATER , The position of the emotions and feelings.
The Wounded King ( The hanged man )
Again another major arcane card showing power in this area. Though emotionly you arer a bit of a wreck right now, there is power you can draw upon here. I would encourage you to seek this out, get close to the element to harness its power. A gentle river or peacefull lake, in fact any body of tranquil water will help. If nothing else try meditating upon an image of this kind. The wounded king represents the sacrifices we must all make in life if we are to acheive greater gifts in the long run.Through Suffereing we gain wisdom and insight.When you fail to understand this you are an unwilling sacrifice and you create more unhappiness for yourself. it is wisdom gained through hardship and experience. a change in ones life that strips away the innessential. A time to heal, meditate and purify on an emotional level. Be aware that there is a reason for everything, seek out what you can learn from this and use it.

4. EARTH , The position of the sensation and instincts
Spear Knight ( Knight of wands )
A powerfull court card whioh again shows that your instincts are good and you should hear them. The spear knight bringgs you energy and impetuosness. he encourages you to act swiftly upon your instincts. His often hasty decisions are usually seen as wise in retrospect. He is the fire within the fire and leads on to new and exciting adventures. Cast off your fears of the unkown that keep you from moving out of this time of sorrow. Move on, Move on he calls to you! Feed from his fire and regain your strength.

5. The position of fears
Spear Eight ( Eight of Wands )
Im going to describe the scene in this card. A mountain rushes down heading towards some rapids. A spear floats upon the water , beeing sped downstream towards the rapids. This is a card of swiftness. You fear that things are moving too quickly and out of your control.You are being forced into rapid growth and expansion and this is frieghtning. Everything about you is changing and you cant put the brakes on to slow it down let alone stop it. you are the spear being carried along by fate which is the speeding river to an unforseeable end. Take heart again since eight is not the end of the journey. Use the power from the spear knight and you'll soon be swimming with the torrent.

6. Unconsidered Hasty Decisions
Stone five ( Five of disks / Pentacles )
There is great danger in not heeding your instincts. By all means act quickly when you are sure it is the correct thing to do, but also be aware that unconsidered actions can bring about thier own problems. Adversity , insecurity and barren prospects all stem from un-thought out actions. This leads to loss of home, means and ground. There is need for firm instinctive grounding before undertaking anything.

7. Hopes
The washer at the ford ( death )
Another major arcane card brings power into your hopes position, indicating Much better chance of achievement. She represents renewal and change to that which has been static for too long. Cast out old ideas leaving room for fresh growth. She is the fate card and change will always happen. Here she tells you there is hope in change. She clears away stale relationships and static customs and brings about renewal. It is a ruthless yet compassionate action which you have no choice but to accept.

8. Considerd Decisions
Arthur ( Emperor )
Yet another Major arcane card, indicating power in this area. This is telling you , you will benefit if you consider your decisions before you take action. Arthur draws together all the recources at hand and weilds them with strength and vitality. He sees all sides to a situation and can act wisely from this clarity. He is willpower, Organiseation and courage. Draw on this are of your life to counteract the hasty unconsidered actions that bring about mistakes.

9. YOU as sovereign of your own world.
Spear four ( four of wands )
This final card shows that once you take control of your life, Accept your responsibilty's to it and begin to work through all this.You will be gifted once again with happiness. This card shows a completion of enterprises, a time of festival and celebration. The enjoyment of the fruits of ones OWN labour. It offers a harmonious conclusion and acknowledges the strengths of the intuative. A lovely card to end the reading with and a generally very positive reading. There are area's still you must work on but the over riding theme of this reading is dont give up hope. Try to see the changes as needed for they most certainly were. You will leanr and grow from this experience and since there were four major arcane cards i think i can safely say that you should see some changes in your current situation soon. It is time to transform and start thinking what YOU want to be.

Hope this helps

[Bethra]

Haveing read you'r PM and replied I would just like to say that if you want a more subjective reading ask again. You asked if I could give you a yes or no answer regarding going back to work and I really couldn't be that definate. I have asked in the guild circle if anyone would do you a quick reading regarding this and hopefully someone will pick it up soon. We don't really have much time though since you will have the answer soon anyway. If anyone reading this would like to answer this more dirrect question for Hotrodchick here it is

[QUOTE] = Do you think they will let me come back to work on Thurs or should I just find another job. [Quote]