Sexually abused... again...

[2-G]

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[blackroseivy]

You may not like this suggestion, but medication may help. As a bi-polar, I was having astral experiences galore & many of them were unpleasant. If nothing else helps, this took away the spirits that were harming me. My prayers are with you.

[2-G]

Thanks but... just so you know.... I've been checked out for various diseases inthe past, I see a therapist for past emotional problems, and according to him and my Papa(who is also a doctor) I'm fine.

[blackroseivy]

I sure hope so! I'm just speaking from my own experience... I hope that you can find help.

[2-G]

It's ok. You gave your opinion, and tried to help. Thanks anyway:)

[Silverwolfthorn]

i dont know if it will make any difference but cleanse the room before you sleep in it. Ie Carry a small candle around the room and say something like "No unwanted entities may enter, this room is protected by my own power and that of the Goddess" try it.

Pm me if you want some more ideas
Blessed be
Silverwolfthorn

[Jenett]

Sounds like there's a couple of choices.

First, sometimes people have *very* sexually charged dreams that can feel absolutely real - and sometimes these dreams aren't pleasant. (so the fact you aren't enjoying them doesn't mean they aren't basically a dream, as opposed to something more esoteric).

There's a couple of things to do. One is to look for any patterns between the incidents - were you watching or reading a particular kind of thing? Did you eat something you don't normally eat? (some people get really weird dreams after some kinds of food) Did you take any medication or not take any medication you normally do? Were there particular kinds of emotional turmoil going on in your life?

You can also take some steps to cleanse and protect your sleeping space. These won't hurt, they might help, and so why not try them?

First, use one of several methods to psychically cleanse your space. The banishing and blessing rituals used in the early part of circle casting are one method, but simply visualising all negative energy being pushed out of the space (say your bedroom) can work. Some people really like to use a broom - you get great visuals.

The other trick is that once you've done this, make sure you visualise good energy in the space: you want to make sure you don't leave a vacumn. You can do this by visualisation, or even just by something putting on some favorite happy music and dancing around or singing along for a while.

It's also a good idea to prepare yourself before bed - grounding and centering, for example. You could also use other psychic cleansing methods. Personally, when I've had a hard day, I throw a handful or two of sea salt (you can get it at most grocery stores) in the bathtub. Salt's a powerful psychic cleanser, and I just imagine all the emotional grungieness washing off me, down the drain, and out away from me.

You could also create standing shields or wards around your bedroom: this is like a permanent protective circle that keeps out unwanted or uninvited energies. Again, there's a number of ways to do this kind of thing in different traditions.

Simply thinking of a shield around yourself (the classic one is white or golden light in an egg shape, sort of like a Star Trek forcefield - don't forget under your feet) is a good start. (Again, there are other methods, especially if visual stuff doesn't work well for you: a comfy blanket around you that shields you from the world, etc.)

A lot of this stuff is something people consider good practice anyway (in varying forms) so it may be worth exploring and seeing if it has an effect on your experience.

The final thing is - you mention you've been harassed before. Is there any chance that some of what's going on is your subconscious trying to deal with that? If you've been seeing a therapist for other things, I'd encourage you to bring this up (at least in general terms: that you've had a couple of disturbing sexually based dreams) as it's possible that it's a past experience that you still haven't sorted through that's the seed of the problem.

Hope this helps!

[2-G]

Thanks for the advice, but I'm sure it's not a dream. I've communicated with one of the spirits that did it a while ago(yeah, that was quite an experience... it got solved though) so I know this is a re-occuring problem. I didn't eat or see anything unusual. I'll try out what you said, and I'll see if ti works.

[audi]

wow. so sorry u have to deal with all that. ur in my thoughts. _pounce_

[farm girl]

awww...((HUGS))