Divine intervention or dumb luck {off shoot to thread what do you suppose...}

[Bigboper123]

Pawnman if you read this you keep your mouth shut! this is something that happened last night after I logged off. As you may or may not remember I did a post about a recurring dream here and now I am not sure if this is proof that I am to be given a task or if it is just dumb luck. Last night in help and hugs I poured out my heart to MW and felt worse than I have ever felt, at this point I did the dumbest thing I could ever do. I went to my room and sat staring at my pistol loaded it put it to my head and pulled the trigger. I fully expected to hear the last sound I would ever hear, but all I heard was *click*. The gun had misfired I mean it hit the igniter for the bullet solid, but it did not fire. At this point I unloaded the gun disasembled it and locked it away as to not tempt fate if I felt that bad again.

I just don't know it i should take it as a sign or what i mean last night after the incident i went to sleep and did not have the dream for the first time in months.

What do you all think dumb luck or divine intervention?

P.S. Pawnman again if you end up nosing in here do not say anything cause I will not go to a phyche ward willingly you dig?

[Dark Phoenix]

I would say someone is looking out for you.

[Bigboper123]

Yeah I don't know if the title helps so the post i am refering to is {what do you think this means if anything} listed in dreams and divinaton. there now you will know what I mean

[number_the_dead]

DON"T DIE Bigboper123!!!! I know I don't know you, and I know I've never talked to you, but now I have read you post I feel like I do know you, and if some one I knew died I'd be heart broken!!!!!! so LIVE!!!!! For me!!!! For life!!! For all the possibilities you have in store!!!!! For every new day!!! I don't care what you damn dream means (although I admit it's scary!) Obviously you were meant to live or else that gun would have gone off!!!! Don't end it now!!! You never know, maybe tomorrow will be the best day of your life!! Maybe not. But isn't it at least worth living to find out?!

[semi]

This is kind of funny to me because I did the same thing and the exact same thing happened. My fiance of 6 years left me for someone "normal" and it killed me and every dream I ever had, as well as reinforcing all my lifelong feelings of a lack of self worth. I adored her. Losing her killed me in all ways except physically. So I figured I'd finish the job.
I went into the basement with my shotgun and put it under my chin to blow out the top of my head. Pulled the trigger. Click. Pointed it at the wall and pulled the trigger. Boom. Blew a chunk out of the wall. I figured I wasn't supposed to die yet, so I didn't.

Since then I went through a grieving process that included drinking a lot sometimes, crushing depression that reduced me to immobility, and lots of purging of pain and letting go. It took about 2 years. During this time I projected the thought out into the universe that I give up and that I was ready to be guided now. I asked what I was supposed to do. Because I gave up and let myself be guided, because in my opinion the gun didn't go off for a reason, I was genuinely guided and inexplicably protected. People appeared to give me shelter, food, etc. Also during this time I behaved like a maniac with a death wish, but no matter what I did I couldn't get hurt. I was kept alive for a reason.

Since the misfiring of the gun I have learned more about myself and existence than I had during the entire rest of my life previous to that. I am here for a reason and I have learned what it is. You are here for a reason and you will learn what it is. You are meant to live to do something, probably some service to the world in some way. It may be a small way that no one but you ever knows about, but it is important that you do it or at least try. Even just the trying to do it is important. The search to learn what it is is important, even if you don't discover it. And maybe all you are supposed to do is just let yourself heal. And that too would be a service to the world.

But I believe your gun did not go off for a reason. I believe this not because of faith or religious beliefs, but because of my own virtually identical experience. I've tried to help you a couple times now not because I'm just trying to be nice, but because I was once in a place very similar to where you are now and I made it out alive and have become quite overjoyed by being alive. I have gone from where you are now to loving every day. If you want to talk to me about anything you can PM or email me. If you don't that's cool, too, I won't be pushy about it. Peace and strength to you.

[QUEEN OF THE DAMNED]

BigBoper The reason I was paused on this so long before was because I was at work with this window minimised trying to make the customers go away so I could read it.

Honey I feel for you so much with the pain you are going through right now. I wish there was something I could do to lessen it for you. I dont believe in a higher power so I cannot have an opinion in the 'divine intervention', but let me tell you that I do not want you to die. Over the past few weeks I have gained a great respect for you and I think that this is one of life's tests for you. Please try, try again and I believe that you will succeed and come out stronger. I understand where you are at, and if I had a gun at some of those extreme moments where you feel like that I would have done the same thing (one of the reasons I am against guns) I have tried it many other ways.
I just want you to know I can identify with your pain and that I am here for you. Please PM me if you ever want to talk. I'm not on on weekends though.
I cannot express enough my love and compassion for you right now. I hope that you can find the strength to pull you through. :hugz:

I can suggest that you find an outlet of some kind. Writing, music, playing an instrument something to let your wounded soul out instead of stuffing it inside until it suffocates you.

[Teresa]

Dear Friend, I believe in Divine Intervention.I have seen it happen many times in my lifetime. I am glad that the higher powers interviened but as I am sure You are aware there are things left here in this lifetime for You to do! Be kind to Yourself and thank the Higher Powers that be for that intervention. It may have well been a wakeup call. Brightest Blessings!

[Ron]

For the record, I am responding to this thread, and bumping it, because Bigboper123 asked me to.

Welll hmm. My my belief the Heavens have worked hard to bring you here, and they have brought you here because they want you here. So, killing yourself would be acting against them, no?

If you really believe death is the path for you, you could ask them to kill you in prayer - in my belief - if they wanted you dead, you'd die.

So, with all of that in mind, the Heavens having worked so hard to bring you here, they would probably perfer that your life be not prematurely ended. And, if you are a servant/worshipper/deceiple of them or if you speak with
them often, then it is quite possible that they would be close to you. So, the probablity of this being divine intervention is high, in my belief.

I do not believe in luck and Fortune - so that option is clearly not something I consider. It is, however, possible that it was purely random - though I believe the probability of that is negligible.

Thusly, I conclude it was divine intervention. In Grace, I am here if you would like to talk. :)

[WokeUpDead]

I'd say luck. For every time a loaded gun doesn't go off there are probably at least 100 times it does. That includes suicide attempts.

[Taurwen]

Even then, 1:100 is a pretty big chance. I don't think it's luck.