*sigh* I just want to belong

[EJ1096]

No matter where I go I dont feel I belong. I Feel rather alone. Nobody to talk to that really wants to listen. Nobody to ask how I'm doing. every where I go I listen to people talk about themselves. Everybody likes me as long as I keep my mouth shut, and hide in the corner, only to come out and solve their problem or do something for them. Nobody really knows me. Nobody asks about my likes my dislikes my dreams. Not even my own wife asks how i'm doing. or how my day went. she just gets in the car text messages people on her phone and talks for 2 hours about herself (and gets mad when I ask if she wants to know How my day went wich I shoud'nt have to ask some one to ask me about my day). then she comes home and IM's all the people sh was text messeging on the way home. till she goes to bed. she knows more about her frinds, sisters, cousins, brothers best friend. than she knows about me. Everything I do for everybody all the crap I put up up with to make everyone elses life easer. And not even so much as a thankyou.
I'm probably being selfish.

To the powers that be: I ask for strength to continue to do what I need to do. And a place to belong.

[Rosana]

I can imagine how you feel... Often I feel similarly :/ What can I say... I will remember you in my prayers :hugz: And please, never forget that there's a sun even after the heaviest rain :)

[mydemand]

*hugs*

[AuntBooPeaceFrog]

:hugz:

[fiaran_flynn]

:hugz: I know the feeling. My ex bf used to ignore me except when he wanted something. The key is communcation...u have to make these feelings know to her, even if it means unplugging the internet wire b4 she gets on, so that you two have time to talk. explin it to her and explain to her how her actions make you feel. Be sure to use "I" statements and not "you" statments so as not to put her on defensive. This may or may not make things better, but know that all the things you really need are already in you. :hugz:

[EJ1096]

Thanks all. for responding. I forget that I do belong some where.I belong here. Things have been really stressfull lately and due to schedualing my wife and I dont get to see eachother as much as we are used to. I think I just got really frustrated cause the 3 hours I got to spend with her she was talking to evrybody else. I know she is just as frustrated about our lack of time together. She works nights and I work days.our jobs are 1 hour away ( we are in the process of fixing that problem) we have no money for the gas it takes to get from work to home not to mention enough time between jobs to get her or me home. so while 1 of us is at work the other is in the car sleeping. Caffeen is our life blood and the car is our bed. and we dont even get the same days off. So needless to say we are both running on empty. But its ok because in like 2 weeks we move up by our works and things will get alot eayser.

Thanks all fror being there to listen. :boquet:

[surreal]

umm, so.... how was your day?

: )