LittlePerson
March 29th, 2005, 11:31 AM
It's about time that I finally decided that I care but not so much that it takes over my life the fundamental questions of belief don't have answers. And I realize also, that I don't care what others think of me and my beliefs. I am going to be stronger and more confident. I'll stand as tall as the redwoods, and be as confident as the cheetah going after her prey. I want to practice what I believe is my purpose in life, to love and have compassion for others. It's as simple as that. But, I plan on saying, I don't have a religious belief if put to it and will say I don't have to defend my beliefs or tell you what they are, but that I'm a spiritual person and I believe in God. No more ever needs to be said. I need to be strong but I often feel weak. Do not let me be weak, Eros. Let me be strong. So, I won't argue when it comes to it, I will state and I will let go. And if I have to walk away, but I will not debate. Others are entitled to their opinions but they will never ever force me to change who I am or what I believe. I know that now, I just never realized how important it is. Even if a leapord thinks its spots are better than a tiger's stripes it cannot make the tiger change its stripes. And both are beautiful individual cats. It's the same with people. We are born and become wonderful individuals. At the same time we are all part of God. All a part of whatever we call you, Eros. But it should not be up to us to force our beliefs on each other. That is not compassionate. I cannot go back to believing in Jesus, I will never be Christian again, and I've been mourning that lost belief for so long that I feel myself healing now and I thank you for it and I thank myself for reaching out to others who are open hearted and understanding. Thank you for your Love, Eros. And may you continue to bless me. I am not going to question the same as I used to. It will not dampen my life, nor cause me to slow down. I think of you as All, as creator, and as the most beautiful, handsome man I've ever imagined (in my mind not incarnate), and I see and praise Lady Nature as your partner and part of you as well. I may not believe in the christian trinity though these beleifs of mine seem more complex but they work for me. I don't have to be anything I am not. I am not wiccan, though I see two facets to God. And I am fine with that. Nor do I think that you can't be "paired" with Mother Nature, because I believe you are. In my heart and mind. And I love you both. Thank you for all of your help in my spiritual journey and may you continue to bless me. This is my prayer to you from me, as I wish and will it, so let it be. Amen.