I'm numb

[AuroraSilvermist]

My cousin has been arrested for murder. I'm totally numb. He's had serious problems with drugs for years, and it's finally come to this. A man was found shot in the head and run over by a car, and my cousin was arrested as one of the suspects. He ran, so I know he was involved, if not the trigger-man. The news report called him a "vicious, dangerous man."

I grew up with my cousin. We played together as kids. We haven't seen each other now for probably 10 years, but...this is not the boy I spent my childhood with. We did grow up very differently (he was a military brat), for which I'm grateful.... I'm just numb. Totally numb.

Sorry, I just had to vent. :geez:

[LadyTrinity]

OMG! How awful!!!! :ugh:

[merlo]

:hugz: I feel for you.

[Jenne]

I'm so sorry this happened to you. Since my dad's been in jail, I've been in one huge time warp--and numbness is probably a factor of that. I'll hope and pray that things get better for you and your family as well as mine. :hugz: Hang in there, and try to support the person he can be and the one you used to know, even if you can't support the person he's been in the recent past...

[teh_fae]

:( sorry to hear that this has happened to you :hugz:

[ravenmyst]

so sorry things worked out that way, have strength, try not to let it overwhelm you.

[Dove]

... Wow ...
That's so awful ... I can't even think of anything to really say :foh:

but I'll dress and light a candle, for you and yours ... and send some positive energy your direction.

I wish I thought this was going to be one of those threads where you come back in a while and say "April Fools" .. or some such thing ... my heart just goes out to you all.

[Nighthawk]

Umm, I am sorry. Not much I can say. I feel bad about that, too. I always wish I had this thing I could do to help. I have found I do not... But, my thoughts are with you all...

[enchancea]

Thats horrible :hugz:

[Mistress_Ravenshadow]

drugs change ppl drasticly...Its a very sad thing to see.. I've seen it happen with a couple of my cousins and my step bro too..last i heard he was in prison for some pretty full on sh!t but i cant imagine what your going through right now
I hope it turns out that he had nothing to do with it.. :hugz:

[KellyP]

I share the feelings of sadness and compassion that many have already posted. While you are in shock over the course your cousin's life has taken, we must be so very thankful that yours has moved differently.

:geez:

[Bryony]

You'll survive, even as traumatizing as it is.

[AuroraSilvermist]

Oh, I know I'll survive. I didn't post to whine about it--honest. I really just wanted to...I don't know; TALK about it, I guess.

I think it would be natural for me to feel like everyone else, and be worried about my cousin and his family, but strangely...my thoughts keep going to the man who was killed. I've heard conflicting things. I've heard that my cousin and the guy who was with him acted in self-defense (the idealized version my aunt is telling everyone), but the newspaper article I found online said that the dead man was apparently just "in the wrong place at the wrong time." I keep thinking about him, and his family, and what THEY must be going through.

And then I think of my cousin again, and I can't believe this is what's happened to him--that he's gone this far wrong with his life. It's awful. I can't imagine the guilt he's going to have to live with when he comes down off the drugs. At least...I hope he feels guilt. To have no remorse would be even more frightening.

It still just seems surreal.

[soilsigh aingeal]

:hugz: Sorry to hear that.