kuzido_oukashiu
April 11th, 2005, 10:22 AM
I've seen my friends hover around this site for a time so I decided I would give it a try. My name is Brett and this is one of my first forum experiences. I'm not too good at the whole keeping up with messages thing. I'm currently in a spiritual zero state if that makes sense -- meaning, I'm no where but learning. Certainly, I am looking foward to helping people and having some of my own questions answered -- sometimes it takes the help from others like yourself to truely understand.
I have been a spiritualist for 4 years. Relatively, I've been christian my whole life up to those 4 years ago. I found a catalyst in our church, and noticed a chain of reactions stemming from the book of Revalation -- everyone thinks the end is near. That is one transaction that personally I cannot and will not believe. Earth is ever lasting, in spiritual sense -- it will regenerate itself, and is immortal like the divine, for the earth is the body in which the divine lay. After falling out of christianity, I had a period of misawareness in my spiritual life -- I was taken into the arms of a supposed teacher, a young woman, and unfortunately found myself in a series of events that I would never forget. This young woman sparked my imagination, made me believe things that weren't real, and created a "monster" out of my mind... I was creating scenarios in my mind... that weren't real... and were hurting me and others badly for no reason.
Needless to say, I continued on this subsequent path for many years afterwards. I took it a step too far in September of 2004... almost taking my own life for an in-reality that I created with my mind. I felt out of balance and quickly started falling south. Just recently I've revived myself, accepting the Divine light that will heal me soon. And with that, I'm re-beginning my journey that I've already begun such a long time ago -- except this time, I will not make the foolish childish mistakes that I made before.
I urge anyone who has a story similar to mine, meditate. Meditate and accept energy.. that is the only thing you can do.. don't try to make it better yourself -- you only dig yourself deeper.
Blessed be to all.
Brett
P.S. -- I'm very excited to be here.
I have been a spiritualist for 4 years. Relatively, I've been christian my whole life up to those 4 years ago. I found a catalyst in our church, and noticed a chain of reactions stemming from the book of Revalation -- everyone thinks the end is near. That is one transaction that personally I cannot and will not believe. Earth is ever lasting, in spiritual sense -- it will regenerate itself, and is immortal like the divine, for the earth is the body in which the divine lay. After falling out of christianity, I had a period of misawareness in my spiritual life -- I was taken into the arms of a supposed teacher, a young woman, and unfortunately found myself in a series of events that I would never forget. This young woman sparked my imagination, made me believe things that weren't real, and created a "monster" out of my mind... I was creating scenarios in my mind... that weren't real... and were hurting me and others badly for no reason.
Needless to say, I continued on this subsequent path for many years afterwards. I took it a step too far in September of 2004... almost taking my own life for an in-reality that I created with my mind. I felt out of balance and quickly started falling south. Just recently I've revived myself, accepting the Divine light that will heal me soon. And with that, I'm re-beginning my journey that I've already begun such a long time ago -- except this time, I will not make the foolish childish mistakes that I made before.
I urge anyone who has a story similar to mine, meditate. Meditate and accept energy.. that is the only thing you can do.. don't try to make it better yourself -- you only dig yourself deeper.
Blessed be to all.
Brett
P.S. -- I'm very excited to be here.