Strange things are happening,

[Coldgrip]

Hi,

I am VERY new. I have not practiced any craft. I have been researching for only about 2 weeks. To be honest with I am scared to death here. I may be posting in the wrong forum if i am i am sorry please send me to the correct forum.

My problem is everytime I research. I am feeling strange! If I read a ritual, or song, a spell, anything like that, within the first 4-6 words i get dizzy, my eyes fall out of focus, nausea, I skae it off and continue. Yesterday I went to buy some candles. I go to grab yellow just before I touch it, it falls, i pick it up, put it back, I grab white, then grab a few other colors go to grab green, just before i touch it it falls, I pick it up put it back. These starnge things have been happening now for about a week. The dizzyness happened the second time i began reasearching, When I felt I had made the decision to get involved completely. I have had strange things happen to me my whole life but this tops them all.

I wish i could explain the feeling I feel more detailed when I read. I walked up to the tree in my yard and explained to it i needed a wand and wanted to make my own. I asked my tree if it could help me. if it was possible to please leave me a gift in the flowerbed. My gift was there the next day. So i brought an apple and said thank you to the tree. I also have not felt much in the past week. Stress is 100% gone, no sadness, no anger. Do not feel happiness either, just very level. Strange feeling. I have even done something to try to scare myself and it did not work.

I would love any input in this, I am scared. I am concerned that i am not ment to pursue this. maybe I am taking it the wrong way, maybe i should and i am going to slow. You can e-mail if you would like, Any advice I would be grateful for. Sorry the post is long.

[Toriach]

Hi,

I am VERY new. I have not practiced any craft. I have been researching for only about 2 weeks. To be honest with I am scared to death here. I may be posting in the wrong forum if i am i am sorry please send me to the correct forum.

My problem is everytime I research. I am feeling strange! If I read a ritual, or song, a spell, anything like that, within the first 4-6 words i get dizzy, my eyes fall out of focus, nausea, I skae it off and continue. Yesterday I went to buy some candles. I go to grab yellow just before I touch it, it falls, i pick it up, put it back, I grab white, then grab a few other colors go to grab green, just before i touch it it falls, I pick it up put it back. These starnge things have been happening now for about a week. The dizzyness happened the second time i began reasearching, When I felt I had made the decision to get involved completely. I have had strange things happen to me my whole life but this tops them all.

I wish i could explain the feeling I feel more detailed when I read. I walked up to the tree in my yard and explained to it i needed a wand and wanted to make my own. I asked my tree if it could help me. if it was possible to please leave me a gift in the flowerbed. My gift was there the next day. So i brought an apple and said thank you to the tree. I also have not felt much in the past week. Stress is 100% gone, no sadness, no anger. Do not feel happiness either, just very level. Strange feeling. I have even done something to try to scare myself and it did not work.

I would love any input in this, I am scared. I am concerned that i am not ment to pursue this. maybe I am taking it the wrong way, maybe i should and i am going to slow. You can e-mail if you would like, Any advice I would be grateful for. Sorry the post is long.
Here's what I think. Let Me start by explaining that I believe that time is not linear, and that many people have the ability to communicate empathically and telepathically. Further I believe that strong emotions both good and bad radiate both backwards and forewards in time. So it is possible to feel the emtions resulting from an action before taking the action. So perhaps in the future you have had a spell go badly or perhaps you started doing spellwork before you were ready and the negative effects are radiating backwards.

My suggestion is to take things slow. Learn the ethical dimension to spell work and start with very small spells.

The other thing to consider is that you may have been raised with the whole Magick is "evil" speech. In which cause it may be that your body both gross and subtle is manifesting a war of belief.

I hope My ideas are of some help. If you have more questions please don't hesitate to ask.

Peace and Long Life

Toriach

[MagickalHack]

Let me start by saying that i may potentially be talking directly out of my ass here, but;



My problem is everytime I research. I am feeling strange! If I read a ritual, or song, a spell, anything like that, within the first 4-6 words i get dizzy, my eyes fall out of focus, nausea, I skae it off and continue. Yesterday I went to buy some candles. I go to grab yellow just before I touch it, it falls, i pick it up, put it back, I grab white, then grab a few other colors go to grab green, just before i touch it it falls, I pick it up put it back. These starnge things have been happening now for about a week. The dizzyness happened the second time i began reasearching, When I felt I had made the decision to get involved completely. I have had strange things happen to me my whole life but this tops them all.

What path are you taking? This could be a sign that your spirit is telling to that you are going dow the wrong path. My suggestion is to sit down in meditation and try and find yourself a spiritual guide. they may help you here.


I wish i could explain the feeling I feel more detailed when I read. I walked up to the tree in my yard and explained to it i needed a wand and wanted to make my own. I asked my tree if it could help me. if it was possible to please leave me a gift in the flowerbed. My gift was there the next day. So i brought an apple and said thank you to the tree. I also have not felt much in the past week. Stress is 100% gone, no sadness, no anger. Do not feel happiness either, just very level. Strange feeling. I have even done something to try to scare myself and it did not work.


This could be your spirit resetting to more of a balanced level. I've gone through that a couple of times. It should pass. If it doesn't, look within yourself. It may be that you are blocking off the flow of energy in your body somewhere.

These are just my opinions, take them as you will, good luck, and good working.

[Coldgrip]

Toriach and Magickal Hack thank you for the responses:

So this is very possibly a negative thing I am feeling? Or it could be my self resetting?

I have been through a lot of bad things in the past 4+ years. Feeling so much stress, anger a lot of negative feelings to feel level off for a change is a good thing for me. But yet scary, it came so quickly.

I am moving slowly. I have not attempted and spells or rituals. I am only researching, gathering information, trying to find a path. but no mater where I go I get these feelings.

I was not raised on anything negative towards Magick, I do not feel like a war is happening inside me.

It is almost as if something/someone is trying to get inside me, filling me. And yes I am fighting it. That probably sounds crazy. Maybe I should stop fighting it?

I appreciate all your opinions.

[Coldgrip]

I also should add that since this all started i have been getting the best sleep I have had in years.

Also Was smoking 2+ packs a cigarettes a day, down to a pack or less now, i did not want to cut back it just happened. it is even silly things like, planting bulbs in my garden yesterday the thought that went through my head while holding the dirt in my hand. The way i feel when I stand outside in the evening on my porch it is like a sence of freedom. I know there are more changes too, just can not think of them all. Explaning this is hard.

thank you for listening,

[Mab]

As one still very close to her beginnings & still pretty new at a lot of things, too, I can relate.

I don't think it's necessarily that Spirit is telling you you're on the wrong path. Nor do I believe you need a spirit guide or any such thing to find your path. When I first started researching & practicing, every time I picked up a magical or spiritual book and began reading, I'd get chills all over & feeling like electricity running through me. And I've always had things seem to jump out of my hands or fall over for no reason whatsoever. But strange things started happening to me when I first started out, too. Just odd things--"visitors", the tv turning itself on, magnets popping off the refrigerator for no reason, etc. Scared the beejeezus outta me at first. But I collected my courage, addressed these things or the spirits causing them & kept on working & reading.

It sounds to me like maybe things are just coming hard & fast b/c you have finally opened up to the possibilities & somebody out there is going "YAY!! FINALLY!!!" and trying to show you your potential & encourage you.

Like I said, I used to be terrified ever time something happened b/c I wasn't used to it. I still get freaked out by some things, but I'm not as afraid as I used to be.

I'd say, take it slow, go at the pace you feel comfortable, and if anything just does not feel right or you get "DANGER DANGER WILL ROBINSON" feelings from something, just stop that action/course & go another route.

Good luck. I have every confidence in you that you will find the path right for you.

If you ever need to just chat, PM me.

[Aleannah]

I tend to agree with Mab. When I first started, strange things were happening to me too....but then I sat down and started thinking about it, and while some of the things were truly "odd", the rest of it was mostly that I was more open to what was happening around me. However, one of the first things I think you should learn is to shield. That is primary before you start developing your other skills (JMO).


I am also available by PM if you have any questions, or there are lots of very knowledgeable people on this site who would be happy to talk to you also. :hugz:

[Mistress_Ravenshadow]

you should look up some information on grounding.. dizzyiness often occurs when a person needs to ground excess energy.. the strange feeling isnt always a bad thing it could just be that you need to take some time to get used to the energy etc involved with this path..
my advice would be to study the basics first dont jump in too deep too fast..
IMO the most important things to learn are 1st.. grounding and 2nd shielding.. i honestly think these are the 2 most important tools anyone on this path needs to know and should regularly refresh..
as long as you dont get in over your head you will be fine.. ask as many questions as you can no matter how big or small the question might seem to be..we were all new on path once.. the best way to learn is to ask no doubt there will be someone on MW with experience in what you want to know about :) good luck with your studies..

[Dragonladyofwater]

you should look up some information on grounding.. dizzyiness often occurs when a person needs to ground excess energy.. the strange feeling isnt always a bad thing it could just be that you need to take some time to get used to the energy etc involved with this path..
my advice would be to study the basics first dont jump in too deep too fast..
IMO the most important things to learn are 1st.. grounding and 2nd shielding.. i honestly think these are the 2 most important tools anyone on this path needs to know and should regularly refresh..
as long as you dont get in over your head you will be fine.. ask as many questions as you can no matter how big or small the question might seem to be..we were all new on path once.. the best way to learn is to ask no doubt there will be someone on MW with experience in what you want to know about :) good luck with your studies..

I agree wholeheartedly with this.

[Coldgrip]

Thank you all so much! I will take your advice. i think I just got scared because i was only researching, I have tried no spells, or anything that advanced. But i will do as you all suggested. research, and go Slowly.
Again thank you all.