why does it never go away?

[Azul]

its been 4 monthes since me and my ex broke up, the love never went away, i tried to move on... it never worked.... and in the time i was trying to move on, she was still there trying to get me back.... and i wanted to go back soo badly.... but i was afraid of the relationship not working again.... so i waited until i thought of a way that we could start it over, instead of just going back....

then all of the sudden, shes moved on, she doesn't want me anymore, she dosn't lvoe me anymore, and becuase i wasn't being completely honest with her, she never knew i still lvoed her throughout it all...and now...she tells me shes moved on, and i love her, and i know this is all my fault... i dont know what to do, i have never felt so helpless and so alone... i thought i was going to fix this, but...

shes been trying to keep me as a friend all through this, and i still want her as a friend, but it leaves me with false hope.... i still think somehow she still loves me and shes just found a way to try to get over the pain...i eont stop trying.... even if i am just fooling myself...i cant give up on her... i know im young, i know shes only one girl....but its not that thats keeping me here....its my love for her.... its too strong to let me let go...

and i just want to die now, shes just told me she doesn't love me at all, shes completely over me, the ships sailed, and she wont go back...i...know i yell at everyone else for it, but i guess everyone has their limits, and pushed that far they all need a little release... but i dont even see it as that anymore i just keep doing it and hopeing i never stop... i know this sounds stupid, and i might wake up tomorow and feel embarassed for righting this.... im going pretty much sraight to bed... i dont expect any replies, you guys helped me before, i cant constantly do this....its just that hteres noting else for me too do... everyone always says you will be able to move on, there are soo many more... but ive tried for 4 monthes to move on, it never worked.... i just want some kinda of hope she still loves me...i dont know if i can make it to monday....

i wanted to turn to divination for some kind of guidance... if this is just that last part of the struggle for me and her to be back together, we both still loved each other up until this week.... or if this is just the ending...i dont know....i just needed to get this out....

im sorry

[BrigidMoon]

Well, I can be a pain. But I won't be. I am sorry for yours though. If she can't see you for who you are and all the love you have for her, then, perhaps trying to persue this would only end up hurting more? Just a thought.

:hugz:

[LadyTrinity]

Yes I think that it does go away. My ex spoiled our relationship and he told me he wanted to go back to me but wasn't sure if he should because he didn't know if it would work or not.. so he waited and I told him to take a hike. He was mad at me when I moved on but he got over it and lives with the girl he cheated on me with _travolta_

[Dark-Omen]

sorry to say for me there will always be a place in my heart for all the women i have loved.

i split 8 years ago from my long term "thought for life" partner after 13 years with her. there is not a day that i don't think about her and miss her friendship. but i know she now has what she wants. a job. a life. and married. i am happy for her but i still love her and always will.

" after we split she moved out took everything. then since then ive seen her 3 times. we never talk. and both go in dif directions. just a shame i lost my best mate thats what also hurt more i thinks"

and another i loved couple years after we split. she was taken aways from us when a train hit her. :( we never spoke after we split i never had a chance to say that i was proud of her and that she was at last getting her life together and now she is gone.

you will always have a place for them. it hurts a lot at the start. but in time it gets easyer you still think about them a lot. then someone else will come along and spark your soul with there flame and draw you to them like a moth seeking out the moon.

so chin up remember the good times remember the bad times. and look for your soulmate.


but asfar advice i dont think any off us can give you advice we all know the sort of pain your are having but not your pain. id say call her bluff. she says she has no intrest. then fine move on. have no more to do with her. say hello if you see her out and about. but nothing more then that.be as she says she is. it may sound harsh to treat her that way. but thats how she is treating you. ad i know its hard to cut them off. but if she dont care she it wont bother her. then atleast you can then start the healing that you need without the salt getting added to them fresh scars.

hmm k ive forgoten now who quit who. as i cant read the text when editing hehe. but if it was you that dumped her. well you only have yourself to blame. "ok i dont know why you split the reasons etc." but if it was her that left. is she rearly worth the chase. then if so follow your heart and damn what anyone says :)

[The High Queen of Faerie]

dont feel bad. took me 6-7 months to get over my ex...

if you ever need to chat, let me know. <3

[Philbo]

Time heals all wounds, but I can't meet any ex-girlfriend without a little twinge of memory of what we had.