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[Maeglin Ancalime]

everything is left of me now. many of my freinds have left me. my dog has left me my life has left me....and im bloody left handed!

*sigh* Everyone around me or that was seems to want nothing to do with me. Spare a select angelic few. Im not sure what to do. I try my darnedest to be a pleasent person trying to help others and such. but i annoy people. Maybe its the way i talk. A few have said i talk funny lately. I dont seem to fit it much anywhere. I dont fit in with the bandies cuz i love music but not to the point they do....well most of them. I dont fit in with the smart people even though im in ap classes i dont feel right. The only people that seem to get along with me and like me much besides the two specialy awsome people are the teachers. They seem to like me just fine. i talk to them on equal levels but its not the same.

*sigh* i just...i wana know what im doing wrong.
:abadpoker

[Teresa]

:hugz: I can understand the feeling that You do not quiet fit in.I walked that path a major portion of my life.Even among other people I felt alone.For me I think it was the shields I put up on purpose.

[Maeglin Ancalime]

:hugz: back*but even when i fully put my shields down...which usualy ends up bad...people dont really change around me.....

[Teresa]

:hugz: :hugz: There comes a point in Your life when You have to decide what really makes you happy. For me it has always been helping others.Being a person who can easily get overloaded with the emotions of others I chose carefully and cautiously how I could achieve this.I volunteer one day each week with the County in preparing hot meals for senior citizens and also have the pleasure of passing them out .You think we feel lonely or forgotten or maybe insignificant ,we are not. Every person has a reason and lesson or mission.Sit down make a list of things that make You happy.Start doing a validation every morning for Yourself.improve Your confidence.This will all happen taking baby steps.Nothing happens over nite. :hugz: :hugz:

[Maeglin Ancalime]

but thats the thing. Everyday i have to take another thing off that list...for everyday something else doesnt make me happy anymore *cries*

[Teresa]

Make 2 lists :smile: One to make changes so that you can add to Your happy list!Positive affirmations really helped me along with finding something I got pleasure from that made me feel valid.( Like I make a differance).it can be something as simple as neighborhood clean up projects etc.

[Maeglin Ancalime]

Maybe. Atm the only thing i can think of is driving. But that costs money *pouts*

Still thank you :hugz:

[Dorian Angmar]

:hugz: I can kinda get where your coming from. I am in school im a relativly smart kid who doesn't fit with the other smart kids cuz of how i dress and act. I dont fit with most of my close friends friends cuz they are hardcore band crazed people who do almost nothing outside of school but play their instraments. I also dont fit well with my teachers cuz they say i am wasteing my potential. A thought that i had when i was begining to think i would have nothing left i liked to do was try new things and i found that paintball was a thing i loved and was an escape from the real world for me. I give you the advice of trying new things to see if there is something you dont know you like but can help you get away from the problems in life and be able to think about em and how to handle em. Well thats all i got for ya good luck and take care

[Silverwolfthorn]

Most of lifes problems can be solved in three steps.

Identifying what you want

Identifying how you are going to get it

Getting it

So you need to find out what you really want and you have to weigh up if the solution is worth what you want. I dont actually think you want to fit in, i think you want friends to come and fit in with you.

I cant see many options other than adapting to a group of friends you choose. You cant change others but you can change yourself. People seem to think others should accept you for whoever you are but in practice this is not the case. So you can chose to hold out until you eventually meet people who will fit in with you, or you can adapt to the particular friendship group.

Im not talking about drastic changes but just adapt for survival, it wont be for long.

Hope i've helped pm me if you wanna talk some more

Blessed be
Silver

[Tabby]

*hugs*

[Maeglin Ancalime]

*hugs*
*hugs back*

[Luminessence]

I know the feeling of not really fitting in with anyone. I felt that way for the first thirteen years of my life. Most people didn't want to be friends with me, and though I had some friends, I had trouble connecting with them. Then I met a friend who I could really connect with and be close to. Then, about a year later, she started having issues and decided she wanted nothing to do with me. It took me awhile, but I did find somebody else who I could connect with in the same way (and even more than I could with the first person). And the first person, after another year, decided she did want to be friends with me after all. That friendship never went back to the way it was before, but that's mostly due to the fact that we both sort of grew apart. The people who leave do sometimes come back.

My point is, you'll probably find at least one person eventually that you can be close to. It might not be yet, and you may never have a lot of them. But there's got to at least be one.