Meltdown

[Spera]

I'm having a complete emotional meltdown. I don't knwo that I could even really explain it. Everything's collapsed. Everyhting in life has cahnged and I don't ahve any sure footing. I randomly burst into tears throughout the day. I annoy myself.

[Aconite]

Dont say that. Ive been there, outburts of uncontrollable crying, out of nowhere emotions, it is annoying and hard to get through, but youll be fine. Just hold on. There are SO many people out there that care about you and love you. YOu can run to us and talk about anyhtign that might be bnothering you, im always here to talk if needed. *hugs*

[Spera]

It's probably just stress. I just graduated college, I didn't get into grad school, i have no idea what I'm doing next-- my parents moved when I was in college so I know no one where I live- I feel like I'm being led spiritually, but I don't know where to. I need a job I don't really have any money left. I broke up with my SO who will not return my phone calls- though he seemed to understand hwen it happened, I've had next to no communication with him since. My sisters are two very controlling people with very differnt tempraments than mine. I'm just losing it. I hate this lost I have no idea where life will take me feeling. I'm just a mess- theya re probably decent reasons to be a mess but I feel helpless and I'm afraid of getting stuck doing soemthing I'll hate for the rest of my life.

[BlackMagicalCat]

Bless your heart,Ill post a prayer for you my beloved friend.You have friends here including me,and we all want to hear from you so we can help and bless you get through this hard time.I pray that something good will come of all this hardship.May your heart be strenghened today,and always.May God send you friends to help you and talk with you.

[Earthy]

I'm sorry things are so hard for you at the moment.
I've been through similar things in the past, and although you may feel alone right now, i want you to know that you're never alone.
There are many people here who care about you,and who are more than happy if you want to talk, rant or even scream.
You are special :hugz:

[Jenne]

Deep breath Hon...I've really literally been there and done that.

Do yourself a favor--if you want to kick yourself out of your well-deserved funk, go and do something (cheap ;) ) that makes you happiest. What always gives ya a lift, brings you out of the ordinary, gives you a sense of home and peace? Go do that until you're calmer...and then go from there.

:hugz:

[merlo]

:fpeace: :boquet: Aw hon, wish I could make it better for ya. I dislike the downs too. We're here for ya. I've been through alot in my short 37 years if ya need ta talk. Love and hugs!!

[Spera]

Thank you for the support.

[Mab]

Sweetie, you're in a really tumultous transitionary place in your life, and you have every right to have a meltdown. I've been through the whole crying-for-no-reason-not-even-hormones thing. It sucks.

Give yourself permission to be stressed out of your gourd, but remember to do things to take care of yourself (like meditate, take some "me" time, work out, go for a walk, have a cup of tea...ANYTHING), and try to remember this is a temporary thing. Things will be ok. You'll be fine.

Remember you can come here & rant/cry/scream/whimper/whatever to us anytime you need.

[ravenmyst]

transition is stressful, painful and necessary, dont beat yourself over it, accept and move forward. :hugz: dont worry you are far from alone, I am in and out of meltdown these days too

[Spera]

I think I'm taking too much me time. My parents can't afford supporting me- I guess I don't really have the time to figure out what I really want- I just have to find soemthing at this point- Somethign I can do with my bachelors degree virtually in creative writing and latin which isn't incrediblt marketable- that is flexible enough for me to spend 3 weeks in MO in january and may if I get into seminary and that I feel accomplishes soemthing meaningful in the world. My expectations are too high- but my Mom's geting shit from my Dad about it so I need to get on the ball about this.

[LadyTrinity]

feel free to PM me hun or even MSN me if u wish _pounce_

[Spera]

I want to thank everyone who has offered me PM's and personal assistance. I just need to apologize ahead of time if I don't take people up on that- I'm oddly desperately afraid of close relationships with people. I know I shouldn't be, and I know you are all great people but I'm deeply affected by the people in my life and sometimes I just don't know how to talk. I don't even myself understand why it's so much easier for me to be vocal exposed in front of alot of people- but it is, I'll try to work on that though it'll just take time.

[Sage Rainsong]

ooooo oooo you can pm me to if you want to also. I think that I forgot to add that with the karma points.

[trippingdaisy]

:hugz: Oh hon, I'm sorry you're feeling so low at the minute. :hugz: Listening ear here, whenever you need it, though I hope you already knew that. If there's anything I can do, let me know, ok? Sending hugs, energy, and love to you.

[Spera]

This is just an odd follow up note to this. The day after I received those prayers I met the man I married.

[Amanda Mitchell]

:hugz: Spera