College, how it brings you into reality and spirituality

[lady rain]

Hi I haven't been on for a while, I go to the School of visual arts in New York city. Since the crazy acts of 9-11-01 in which I witnessed the whole thing walked 40 blocks with a hundred pounds worth of art supplies, met up with my mom. Then it took 6 hours to get to Staten Island

Crazy hhaa! Among that, this is my first year in college. I am very happy about it. School is a dream come true but you learn a lot about yourself once you moved on to be an adult. I realized I am getting closer to my spirit and to the craft itself. I am 18 practiceing it for 8 years already. Though still living with my parents that don't know its hard. I would have to say though my art brings a lot of my nature side out. I think its important for anyone to find themselves during college it helps you better understand yourself and the world. I work with meditation now so I can get rid of stress and unwanted feelings. It works and I look at the fall season and find it the most beautiful out of the other 3 seasons. Halloween is coming up very soon, I am going to have a great time in the woods. I can't wait.

For those who already graduated college or is looking upone it I honestly Have to say you grow up and see a different side of yourself. I feel as you get older and have more freedom you can incorporate the craft more in life as I am doing now. I have to hide my feelings from my parents due to the fact the are paying for my education that isn't cheap at all. Once I move out I will be able to enjoy it much more, I am sure many pagans among the older bunch can tell you that.

I conclude to say blessed be Life is hard stick through it, enjoy this earth while its around. who knows what going on. Its sad to think that GOD has something to do with this, there is no such thing please. All of us have to endure such crap its horrible.

Blessed be all be safe and pray for the earth suvival,

Lady Rain

[Danustouch]

Are you saying there is no such thing as God? I believe in a God and Goddess, and I don't think anyone's belief in ANY God, or Goddess for that matter, is invalid.

Beyond that point...I agree that College is a wonderful time to seek your true spirituality. I had a crash course in this. When I went to college, I intended to study Youth Ministry. It was a Christian College, and I was a Christian at the time. Luckily, my college was about 15 minutes from Boston. Anyway..so..I went in pretty naieve, and narrowminded about other paths/faiths. I was a bible thumping type christian. Scary..I know. Anyway...during my studies there, I started to interact with the other Christians on Campus, and the Christian Leadership...and my experiences with them left much to be desired. I found them to be exceedingly judgemental, and, in many respects..Ignorant, and uncompassionate. I'm not, I repeat NOT saying that all christians are like this, or even ALL christians at this one particular school. But the College I attended, was a fundamentalist Christian College, a very straight-laced denomination (dancing was not permitted, etc). Very strict, and seemed to draw people who needed to feel "holier than thou". There were alot of them present on that campus. So..I began to think critically of them, and thus, of myself. I began to examine myself for the qualities I found repulsive in them. Meanwhile, I was taking a few philosophy courses, and venturing into Boston at least three nights a week, to hang out in Harvard Square, and Park Street, and Faneuil Hall. Anyone who has had the priviledge of spending any time in these areas, know that they are idea epicenters...kinda like mini - greenwich villages. Cultural Mecca's. You become exposed to every type of culture, every type of belief system, every type of music, every type of lifestyle. Slowly but surely, I began to open my eyes. I became very disillusioned with Christianity, and so began just...searching for SOMETHING that made sense to me, FOR me. I didn't become Wiccan until after I left college. But...my experiences in college, plus the broader experiences in Boston, helped "Prepare" me for finding Wicca.

I look back very fondly on those days, and would love to visit Boston again soon:)

[lady rain]

I beileve in God"s" and goddess of nature and of earth not THEE GOD! Honestly I am in a huge depression right now to understand me Prozac Nation explains my depression and I am not on drugs to help me so thats a big difference. Any way happy Samhain to all piece out all,



Blessed be love all Lady Rain

[Myst]

Originally posted by lady rain
Its sad to think that GOD has something to do with this, there is no such

You're right, this has nothing to do with Yahweh, but with the terrorist criminals who commited crimes. At this time I would encourage anyone to comfort themselves with whatever belief system works for them.

[clef0628]

I grew a lot in college too. I think because my parents were not always watching over me, I was able to express myself. I was an only child so, my parents had not much else to but keep watching me. Plus, college is the frist place I meet a real pagan. That admited it at least. Untill then I did not even know what paganism was. I went thought a depression period myself in college, about my junior year. There was a small bridge by a little river back in the woods behind the dorms. I use to go there and just cry and talk out my feelings. And as I sat there, feeling the wind on me, listening to the waters and the trees, I just felt surrounded by so much life. It really enlighten me. It was like I could feel the force of life itself around me. I felt better. I started believing that this force was mother Earth herself and I started worshiping her. I didn't have any books on paganism untill like two years later. But, somehow it seemed I found it in myself first. I also believe now that I'm living alone i'm growing again. After college I lived at home for another two years. Now, on my own I believe my ture self has come out.