Vivi
June 14th, 2005, 10:00 PM
Please: forgive me if this is in the wrong forum - as usual, I was slightly confused as to where to put this.
A friend of mine, who practices the Craft, says perhaps they were testing me... Another says they "want" me... (I severely doubt this, as I see little reason why anyone would want any bit of me.)
I have not researched Incubi, so I've had to rely on their (my friends') information on them - though I am going to make a stab at collecting my own information as soon as possible...
When I'm dehydrated, normally - once in awhile I feel like I'm falling. But
it only lasts for about .9 of a second... It feels like I'm just falling
right through the air - but I haven't moved a bit. It's accompanied w/
dizziness that "attack" at about the same time/way as the feeling of "fall."
When I laid down to take a nap, the feelings of "fall" started coming for about 1-2 or 2-5
seconds at a time... Needless to say, I noticed and was already a WEE bit
concerned...but I didn't really mind it... I mean - the falling, though
startling, is oddly pleasant.
Soon, whenever the "falling" would come on - starting to come every 5 -
15 seconds or so - I would start jerking around, always MUCH more than a
twitch... A jerk, a tremor, a shiver, a spasm - always medium to violent.
Once or twice, my whole body seemed to jerk on the bed, sort of jumping or
something.
I remember a feeling of being suppressed and tired - like a thick but
pleasantly heavy blanket was covering me, making me sleepy. I felt torn -
wanting to move normally again, but wanting to stay "unmoving" under the
"sheet."
Most of the time, my eyes were closed - I started “seeing” demons. Sometimes
"walking" or just moving...but sometimes... Fornicating. *sighs* (I think I
remember feeling a bit of…sexual stimulation come on at that time…
(This is a bit uncomfortable for me…)
The way they looked - I mean the demons...I really don't like to stereo-type demons as
looking inhuman and unearthly... But that's the "traditional" description of
them... *sighs*
It was their appearance. I have the vague feeling that there were 3 -
5 of them that I "saw." But yet another part SCREAMS that is was three...
One I cannot remember what the third looked like - but I vaguely have a
feeling/belief/"memory" that it was "there."
The second - it is so muddled that I cannot much make a description.
Though...I think it had horns and might have been SOMEWHAT like a minotaur.
(Did I spell that right? *sighs*) I have the feeling that it had brown
horns and brown fur, muscled - perhaps - medium to large... Perhaps cloven
feet...?
The third...seemed to be undead. That...and very non-descript when it came
to facial features and such.
It had a thick lower body, like a trunk - it just came out from the
ground... It seemed to have no visible feet. It just..."oozed"? No, sort
of "slid" along the ground. It's upper body sort of narrowed in - thin
arms, neck, upper back...thin, angular head...
The head - I cannot truly describe... Not that it was "complicated" - but
because I believe that if I TRIED to describe it, I can already tell that
you wouldn't get the correct picture.
It was mostly white - but had dashes of red upon its "skin" in random areas
- and they didn't seem to be in any particular pattern or bear any
symbols... The dashes or red were large and mostly vertical, but did not
all look the same, I can tell you that...
The red "marks" were many upon the creature.
But besides that - I think a little bit of it was intuition that told
me what they were... But mostly I
think I assumed they were demons by their "demonic" appearances.
They were...fornicating - mating - w/ human women I think... Maybe
another demon woman in one of the instances in which I saw it going on
though... But once or twice, I saw them mating w/ a human male…
I assume a bit of symbolism or…something lies in this next bit…
Regardless of the gender of the demon’s partner, they… They
seemed to have become pregnant.
The humans seemed generally well-proportioned and of average weight…
Their stomachs were what “told” me they were pregnant… They all had
bulges in their stomachs, as if it were carrying a fetus… Though some were
smaller and some were larger, I saw that as understandable and did not
question it.
A few times, I felt the presence of what I believe to be a demon - standing
by the bed. Thick and tall... Not advancing, but "watching" and...perhaps
waiting for something... Perhaps that bit was my imagination...?
Perhaps...but I remember feeling a presence...ALMOST totally there... But
in a way, not totally... I felt sure that it was the white and red one that I
was seeing most of at the time.
Every few moments, I would have to take extra energy to breathe - a LOT...
Because, every few moments, I would find myself breathless as I my breathing
kept fading and such...
But what seems most odd... Is that I seemed to have forgotten how to
MOVE... I tried opening my eyes many a time - and only after much effort
did it work, but not every time I tried did I succeed... I would try to
move them, and they would flutter, but I couldn't...didn't remember how to
open them...
And then, my limbs... Mostly my arms, I remember. I could move them, but
not exactly the way I wanted... Sort of abstract - the movements - and
always terribly shaky and jerky. I didn't know how to move my arms
either...and I think the same went for my back...
I think...I think I might have been silent the whole time... Yet I have
the vague impression that I tried - I also have the vague impression my
voice wasn't working well - to call out or something...I don't think I tried
to scream...
*sighs*
My memory of it is all so muddled up...
My memory of before it happened is messed up too...
It's hard to remember anything or know WHEN
anything happened for a while before the…event.
I do know that this was not a dream. I remember feeling just the way you do when you ARE awake, to the point where I could think "Is this a dream?" and be able to consider the event, and make an "educated guess" of "No."
This happened in my parent's bedroom... Near the windows - don't really know what that has to do w/ it though... *sighs*
But somehow, I believe that I was able to become "relaxed" enough to START falling asleep... I don't remember when - but I eventually fell asleep and, as far as I remember, it was dreamless.
I am very, very sorry for the long post... I tried to shorten it - I really did... I was able to cut out a sentence or two, but that was it...
Any additional questions? I am feeling quite nervous and such... The friends in that practice the Craft that I contacted seem to think the demons were incubi...
And I have no idea why this happened. I'm quite nervous and confused...
Please, please help me... Please give me any information on incubi or opinions/thoughts you have...
A friend of mine, who practices the Craft, says perhaps they were testing me... Another says they "want" me... (I severely doubt this, as I see little reason why anyone would want any bit of me.)
I have not researched Incubi, so I've had to rely on their (my friends') information on them - though I am going to make a stab at collecting my own information as soon as possible...
When I'm dehydrated, normally - once in awhile I feel like I'm falling. But
it only lasts for about .9 of a second... It feels like I'm just falling
right through the air - but I haven't moved a bit. It's accompanied w/
dizziness that "attack" at about the same time/way as the feeling of "fall."
When I laid down to take a nap, the feelings of "fall" started coming for about 1-2 or 2-5
seconds at a time... Needless to say, I noticed and was already a WEE bit
concerned...but I didn't really mind it... I mean - the falling, though
startling, is oddly pleasant.
Soon, whenever the "falling" would come on - starting to come every 5 -
15 seconds or so - I would start jerking around, always MUCH more than a
twitch... A jerk, a tremor, a shiver, a spasm - always medium to violent.
Once or twice, my whole body seemed to jerk on the bed, sort of jumping or
something.
I remember a feeling of being suppressed and tired - like a thick but
pleasantly heavy blanket was covering me, making me sleepy. I felt torn -
wanting to move normally again, but wanting to stay "unmoving" under the
"sheet."
Most of the time, my eyes were closed - I started “seeing” demons. Sometimes
"walking" or just moving...but sometimes... Fornicating. *sighs* (I think I
remember feeling a bit of…sexual stimulation come on at that time…
(This is a bit uncomfortable for me…)
The way they looked - I mean the demons...I really don't like to stereo-type demons as
looking inhuman and unearthly... But that's the "traditional" description of
them... *sighs*
It was their appearance. I have the vague feeling that there were 3 -
5 of them that I "saw." But yet another part SCREAMS that is was three...
One I cannot remember what the third looked like - but I vaguely have a
feeling/belief/"memory" that it was "there."
The second - it is so muddled that I cannot much make a description.
Though...I think it had horns and might have been SOMEWHAT like a minotaur.
(Did I spell that right? *sighs*) I have the feeling that it had brown
horns and brown fur, muscled - perhaps - medium to large... Perhaps cloven
feet...?
The third...seemed to be undead. That...and very non-descript when it came
to facial features and such.
It had a thick lower body, like a trunk - it just came out from the
ground... It seemed to have no visible feet. It just..."oozed"? No, sort
of "slid" along the ground. It's upper body sort of narrowed in - thin
arms, neck, upper back...thin, angular head...
The head - I cannot truly describe... Not that it was "complicated" - but
because I believe that if I TRIED to describe it, I can already tell that
you wouldn't get the correct picture.
It was mostly white - but had dashes of red upon its "skin" in random areas
- and they didn't seem to be in any particular pattern or bear any
symbols... The dashes or red were large and mostly vertical, but did not
all look the same, I can tell you that...
The red "marks" were many upon the creature.
But besides that - I think a little bit of it was intuition that told
me what they were... But mostly I
think I assumed they were demons by their "demonic" appearances.
They were...fornicating - mating - w/ human women I think... Maybe
another demon woman in one of the instances in which I saw it going on
though... But once or twice, I saw them mating w/ a human male…
I assume a bit of symbolism or…something lies in this next bit…
Regardless of the gender of the demon’s partner, they… They
seemed to have become pregnant.
The humans seemed generally well-proportioned and of average weight…
Their stomachs were what “told” me they were pregnant… They all had
bulges in their stomachs, as if it were carrying a fetus… Though some were
smaller and some were larger, I saw that as understandable and did not
question it.
A few times, I felt the presence of what I believe to be a demon - standing
by the bed. Thick and tall... Not advancing, but "watching" and...perhaps
waiting for something... Perhaps that bit was my imagination...?
Perhaps...but I remember feeling a presence...ALMOST totally there... But
in a way, not totally... I felt sure that it was the white and red one that I
was seeing most of at the time.
Every few moments, I would have to take extra energy to breathe - a LOT...
Because, every few moments, I would find myself breathless as I my breathing
kept fading and such...
But what seems most odd... Is that I seemed to have forgotten how to
MOVE... I tried opening my eyes many a time - and only after much effort
did it work, but not every time I tried did I succeed... I would try to
move them, and they would flutter, but I couldn't...didn't remember how to
open them...
And then, my limbs... Mostly my arms, I remember. I could move them, but
not exactly the way I wanted... Sort of abstract - the movements - and
always terribly shaky and jerky. I didn't know how to move my arms
either...and I think the same went for my back...
I think...I think I might have been silent the whole time... Yet I have
the vague impression that I tried - I also have the vague impression my
voice wasn't working well - to call out or something...I don't think I tried
to scream...
*sighs*
My memory of it is all so muddled up...
My memory of before it happened is messed up too...
It's hard to remember anything or know WHEN
anything happened for a while before the…event.
I do know that this was not a dream. I remember feeling just the way you do when you ARE awake, to the point where I could think "Is this a dream?" and be able to consider the event, and make an "educated guess" of "No."
This happened in my parent's bedroom... Near the windows - don't really know what that has to do w/ it though... *sighs*
But somehow, I believe that I was able to become "relaxed" enough to START falling asleep... I don't remember when - but I eventually fell asleep and, as far as I remember, it was dreamless.
I am very, very sorry for the long post... I tried to shorten it - I really did... I was able to cut out a sentence or two, but that was it...
Any additional questions? I am feeling quite nervous and such... The friends in that practice the Craft that I contacted seem to think the demons were incubi...
And I have no idea why this happened. I'm quite nervous and confused...
Please, please help me... Please give me any information on incubi or opinions/thoughts you have...