Please Stay With Me

[WynnJera]

JD as you lie miles away from me in a hospital bed helpless, I lie miles away hopeless. I know you are tired, and I know you want to sleep but Momma wants you safe at home.... The Dogs miss you very much... It is hard for me to sleep without you snoring ... They say you do not know what you have until it is gone and that is sure it ... I miss the comfort of knowing you are still with me but the muffle of of your nozzle :lol: without that I can not sleep... JD I know you can hear me and I know there are so many people watching out for us ... most certainly Flar and Aine ... You just need to get better and not have all their hard work be in vain... I love you .... wakeup sweetheart ... wakeup ......

[Flar's Freyja]

I call upon the beneficent Lord and Lady, the ancient powers, saints and all deities of healing......Carna, who guards the physical organs......hear your daughter's cries, now! Bless JD's organs with good function and open his eyes. Hold your daughter WynnJera up and give her the strength she needs to be there for her husband. I call upon you now with every molecule in my soul to heal him instantly.

So Mote It Be!

[WynnJera]

JD it had been a long day... You have been though sooooo very much :collapse: .... I know baby I know ... but after all this you can't give up now .... we still have a honeymoon to plan and take ... we still have many years of memories to make ... please relax and come home soon... I love you sweetheart :hugz:

[WynnJera]

JD you need to please fight to stay here.... I know how strong you are ... you lived with me for crying out loud :rotfl: .... I know having to have all those Sz's hun was really had but I was there with you every step of the way.... I want you to have your eyes fixed on the picture I brought in of our anniversary dinner ... not fixed and dilated .... Fight JD Fight :sadeyes:

[Faery-Wings]

Mother, hear your daughter's plea. Send strenght and healing to JD.

So mote it be.

[WynnJera]

I know you tried so hard sweetheart to stay with me I know, but things just go to much for you to handle .... I would have taken to burden off you if I could have... in a second ... Go gently now to the otherside ... Gizmo is waiting for you .... I love you forever M'lord, you were my soulmate and I will never forget you .....

[Earthy]

He will always be with you hon :hugz:
May your memories bring a smile to your lips and a warmth to your heart.
Always here if you need to talk :hugz:

[Boogins]

Wynn...:hugz: He is with you, and will never leave you... and you will see him again.

[WynnJera]

Honey you would be so proud of me... I have held my head high and I have not had 1 Sz.... and durring this difficult time and dealing with your family, who has ran me through the ringer on more than one occasion.... I am almost done making all the plans for you sweetheart and I am trying to make them the best ever ... something really spectacular..... I hope I make you proud ... I miss and love you ....

[Flar's Freyja]

Honey you would be so proud of me... I have held my head high and I have not had 1 Sz.... and durring this difficult time and dealing with your family, who has ran me through the ringer on more than one occasion.... I am almost done making all the plans for you sweetheart and I am trying to make them the best ever ... something really spectacular..... I hope I make you proud ... I miss and love you ....

Joe's funeral was unconventional as well and I thank gods I had the support of his parents, although his dad said that his side would have been mortified........we are all with you, and I pray for your healing.

[WynnJera]

Well you are home now sweetheart ... I am sorry the house is such a mess .... I have kinda been busy with everything as of late.... Your service was beautiful, but you know that, you were there ... I have been trying soooooo very hard sweetheart to stay Sz free and I need you now more than ever to surround me with your love and comfort to keep me going durring these dark days ahead ... Sorry about the balance on the credit card ... I did not want your dad to have the chance to say I owed him ... So I used that ... but will pay it off soon, cuz you took such great care of me and Chris will make sure everything it kept safe .... thank you for coming into my life and giving me the chance to love you .... I miss you and love you loads sweetheart :hugz:

[WynnJera]

I never knew one could have so much crap in ones office.... so far 5 garbage bags full and that is just real garbage, no bills that have to be filed and or shredded...... just crap that was taking up space in your office and going through all of it I feel so utterly alone .... even as I wash our cloths, I cry thinking this will be the last time I will ever have to wash your cloths ever again and I can not help but break down .... then there was the Valentines card from this year I found unopened that was used as a note pad instead of being opened ... that was a real slap in the face amidst all this ... I do not know how more I can take ... I just hope I can stay calm and Sz free .... A Sz is the last thing I need right now after all I have been through, Please watch over me and keep me safe ... I miss you and love you so much :hugz:

[Earthy]

:hugz: Wynn

[SilverClaw]

hugs to you WynnJera

[Flar's Freyja]

:hugz:

Joe and I wore the same size :hairraise I'm blessed in that I can keep and wear some of his things. His mom is making a pillow out of his favorite denim shirts, and I just thought I'd have her stuff it with his sexy boxer shorts. Maybe you can do something like that.

Sending love, comfort and strength for your journey, my friend.

[Nighthawk]

I am so sorry. Hugs.. but that ain't enough

[Boogins]

Oh, Wynn... :hugz:

[Caffiend]

:hugz: I wish there was something I could say or do to help. So sorry

[GryphonGirl]

Hugs to you Wynn, you have been through so much....just take a little at a time. Do it it at your own pace. We will hug you along the way. :hugz:

[Flar's Freyja]

Still thinking of you, Sister. I love you.

The aftermath is so very hard. I'm moving toward forming rituals to work through the grief, like picnicing with him at his graveside with his cheese and Mountain Dew. Hey, I'm from an Italian family that buries bottles of Vodka with people....... The first time was so healing. I'm sure you'll come up with your own as time moves by.

He left sacks and boxes and albums of pictures from his entire life. I also plan to put together many scrapbooks.

I think you probably share my feeling that we had no idea how deep our love really was for them until they were gone. Surely they know it now :hugz: