Panther, we ALL have regrets. It's a part of life. It's life, baby.
Yes...you can.but I still can't help regretting certain things from time to time.
But you made it. YOU MADE IT. You didn't wind up shooting half school up, you didn't kill yourself, somehow, someway, you found the strength to get through it. :cheers:When I was in grade 8 I had a lot of issues with depression and getting picked on by the kids in my elementary school.
There, there, love...Since things are crappy, I regret a lot. I know it does absolutely no good, but I can't help it.
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Goddess knows I should know that more than anyone by now.
I've been led to believe that we create our reality for ourselves, by our thoughts and feelings, and our attitudes about our reality.
How we initially react to it, will ultimitely create an outcome, that...reacts to the reaction.
Is it possible...you just...might...be...setting up your own obstacles? Not that your trying to fail, but that by believing you couldn't do it, it sets up a chain reaction that puts up obstacles just when you think you CAN do it, for it contradicts what you felt deep down. You MUST change that attitude.
Start believing in how TRULY gifted you are. Don't focus so much on how much you're going to do it if it kills you, because there's nothing there that is going to... except your own "perserverence" you've set yourself up against a self-induced obstacle.
I've said this before, but I don't know if you just passed it by, or didn't see it.
Are there any LGBT groups near you? In Toronto, which is NOTORIOUSLY gay friendly, there is bound to be.
I know of a young gay man that just moved to Tononto from "WinterPeg" , in his early 20's, has a boyfriend, and I've known him for years. He calls me "Aunty". When we first met on a Pagan forum, he was a wreck.
Now, he's got such a presence about him, it's amazing. I can try to hook you two up if you want, and maybe they can help you.
It's a start. And a thought. You can PM me, and we can talk about it.
I know of another 15 year old in London, straight, but with the same issues as you.
And he's AMAZINGLY mature for his age. He's at a downpoint in his life right now too.
Just letting you know there's someone there for you.
Now chin up, 'K? PM me if you want...