I know it's trendy these days to say you have no regrets about life, but I still can't help regretting certain things from time to time. I was on thebus today and I overheard a bunch of ninth grade girls who were students at the art school I had wanted to go to since I was young. They were just talking about basically all the gay guys they knew, and all that. For some reason it just made me sad. When I was in grade 8 I had a lot of issues with depression and getting picked on by the kids in my elementary school. I hardly ever went to school and I barely passed, so I figured it was no use applying to go to the high school of the arts. I applied two years later to go in for grade 11, but I didn't get in, I was so devastated, I cried for the whole evening when I got the letter that said "thanks for applying, but you suck." (well, not in those words, of course). My friends who went to the art school talk about how wonderful it is, and the amazing people who go there. I'm really big on the arts, plus I've always had a really hard time finding people to be friends with. An art school where people are openly gay, and everyone is an artsy weirdo like me sounds like paradise. Instead, I go to the local Catholic school which is up my street, and it's hell (no pun intended). I just wish things had been different, and things actually worked out in a way in which I would actually be happy for once. Since things are crappy, I regret a lot. I know it does absolutely no good, but I can't help it.