Because we are locked into this space time continuum, we appear to live a very long time. If the life were not somewhat of a trial, we would not have too much to show. I like the saying, "Without trials there would be no growth." Just remember, we have eternity to play, so maybe this is just the trial of this life. Even by our standards of time, it is still short. Double mom duty though is tough, you are a good person for doing this. It would be much harder on those lovely babies to have to be cared for by a total strange that does not love them the way you do.