I think you have more or less answered your own questions in your own description and analysis of your dream. You are sexually and emotionally interested in this girl although her lifestyle is quite different to your own. You are kind of scared that she will recognise your interest, not out of rear of rejection but quite the opposite... You worry that she may well be interested in you as well, but what does that mean from her point of view? You are scared of getting sucked in to her polyamorous world and lifestyle; about how her primary lover will react and how you would react to him/her, you are anxious about how you would cope emotionally etc...
But actually you want her to catch you. You want her to jump in that pool with you.
Does that help or make sense?
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