Does not believe in Lucifer, still I got his attension.

[Gladeflower]

Tonight I dreamed that I was walking in my childhood village, I saw my house and walked on a side dirt road. I began to scan around me into the dark if there were anyone there. Then I got a ‘seeing from my own eyes perspective/aspect, and realized how dark the night was. It was so dark I couldn't even see my own hands when I tried to spot them. A complete darkness.

Then I woke up here in my room, totally paralyzed, couldn't move a limb. I felt a shadow, it had like a wise and ancient feeling to it. He was watching me. He were next at my side in my bed, I tried to look around to see if there was anyone there, but unable to do this. I felt afraid that it would bite me in the neck if I didn’t face it and guard myself. I tried to sit up and somehow still unable to move any limb or part of myself, I begun to fly up, away from the bed slowly and softly to be placed on the floor in the middle of my room. I were convinced that It was this very ancient power that lifted me, still unable to move, stiff like a stick.
I had a line of sight in front of me, saw my closet door and noticed one detail that were incorrect, a wall painting were on the wrong side of the room. Now I understood this wasn’t the reality I’m usually in ( the real one?) Still I felt very uncomfortable/unpleasant. I choose that I didn’t want to continue this journey, because it was uncomfortable and I was a stiff package unable to fly around freely, I had full consciousness. My wish was granted and I woke up again, into the real, normal world. Not traumatized but began an analysis, my first intuition said it could be a demon, or some neutral spirit that had been attracted to me, I apologized if I had disturbed anyone.

The day before I tried my first serious contact with my goddess, Pan answered but my goddess didn’t show herself, instead after this meditation I felt a breeze of darkness while laying down in bed with closed eyes, still trying to invoke my goddess. Then a normal, slow, calm voice was heard after this darkness rush saying ‘Lucifer’… chocked. But I didn’t diminish him, instead I asked if he were my god, no answer… Then I met a cloaked figure flying low on the ground, approached me and the hood pulled down. Face of an old tiger with red lynx ears showed up. He loosed the cloak and run around playfully up some stair steps. He had dark gray areas on his fur, like of an old person. He had a Siberian tiger look with more red-brownish instead of yellow stripes. I had an conversation with him, asked him if he were my spirit guide. Didn’t got a clear answer, he dodged the question and I got a feeling like he was some kind of substitute or just one of many animals. He talked about that my goddess were watching me, but didn’t want to show herself yet for a few reasons, one of them were that I had to ‘choose’ first. My intuition said she didn’t show up because of Lucifer who were in the area, waiting. I finally said goodbye, thanked him. And I begun to get farther away from him, I yelled a last time if he could give me a “quote of the day” just for fun, so I had something to think about. He answered back with “ The patient has yet to learn to be inpatient” Then I went for a meal. Still with a feeling like I rush things

Another day before this I were in a church and some kind of youth-pastor or something who believes literally on the bible, said he felt I had easy for contacting “God”. Also different new friends at my school have mentioned that it seems like I’m a psychic, I have NEVER seen myself as psychic and have always repelled statements of anyone able to be a psychic before. I’m still a bit skeptical, but have an enormous respect for the unknown.

Any comments, or do you recognize something familiar here with other 'stories', tell me about them or link them please. THANKS

[RubyFire]

& the Christian God was associated with it. Isaiah 14:12 Another serious problem with rendering this word #1966 Haylale as "morning star" is that Jesus Christ himself is called the morning star in Rev. 22:16 where he says: "I am the root and the offspring of David, and the bright and morning star." It's even a church http://www.morningstarbiblechurch.com/

So you are afraid of the dark? What is unknown can be the most frightening, even if it's friendly. Your experience sounds like 'alien abduction', or 'night paralysis', an interim sleep cycle when you're not quite asleep but not yet awake, so that 'stuck' feeling occurs. Explore more & look around on the internet. Someone just looked at you, could even have been the local priest-this dream of yours. Things are rarely what they seem-especially in dreams.

[thought_on_a_wind]

Okay, felt the "tug" and needed to put something here that might help...

Lucifer, the entity and not the establishment hooved scapegoat for all the brutality invoked by said establishment, was the bringer of light... as such it seems to me the overwhelming darkness that subdued your senses may actually be part of your spirit telling you it's time to bring light back into your life/spirit. The fact that the room was dark and something was out of place, and the fact that you question if you were in this reality or not indicates to me a couple things... nonetheless the indication of the "hagging" phenomena associated with it...

1. you were in the ethereal realm, yes I'm of the opinion when you were placed in the center of your room you were what is called "heavy" projecting, and due to the densities involved with the ethereal realm it can be disturbingly realistic... when one "heavy" projects there's an imbalance of the amount of spirit in the ethereal body, thus hampering movement and can be very disturbing because of how real it is or feels. A point that would indicate to me that you were in the ethereal specifically stems from the fact that for the most part the room was the same but something felt out of place, the ethereal realm mirrors reality but has minor differences... depending on the level of ethereal realm you are in.

2. once again you bring up darkness, I believe that some of your fear or discomfort was due more to the amount of etheric body that projected, thus disorienting you and restricting your movement. Back to the darkness, Lucifer may be a necessary step in bringing light to an otherwise unnecessarily dark part of you before you meet your goddess.

Don't know if this helps but, I figure regardless you'd best do some research on Lucifer hope that this link and this link help.... I don't really agree with this article as far as views are considered but I saw a couple things that might give a little insight if you have a more Orthodox view.

Blessed be,
Thought

[thought_on_a_wind]

Ironically enough, as I posted the above the new posts were exactly at 666 as is evidenced by the screenshot.

[Amilee]

Sounds to me like you just experienced sleep paralysis...aka a night terror. Very interesting!

[Corvis Canis Latrans]

Originally Posted by Amilee

Sounds to me like you just experienced sleep paralysis...aka a night terror. Very interesting!

That's what I was going to say.

When I have it, I know I'm not quite awake, because minor details of the room are off for me as well.

[Gladeflower]

Super duper great answer mr.thought_on_a_wind. thank you
Does satanism have anything in common with Lucifer?

Sleep paralyze huh, why would you think that is very interesting? Amilee.
Any knowledge/experience you are willing to share?

[Burning Angel]

Originally Posted by Gladeflower

Super duper great answer mr.thought_on_a_wind. thank you
Does satanism have anything in common with Lucifer?

Yes it does...Michael Ford is possibly the most notable Luciferian thinker, and a damn good musician too ^^ Listening to his music now Luciferians believe that Lucifer is the bringer of light...kind of a Gnostic religion. You'll find a thread on Ford in the Satanism forum, but his basic ideas are that Lucifer/Satan is an Adversary, found in various cultures as Set, Ahriman, Shaitan/Iblis, Satan, and Yaltabaoth, the Child of Chaos from some Gnostic book circa 50-70 AD, who opposes, tests and strengthens - basically the whole philosophy revolves around a balance of darkness and light, with the magician (in Luciferian magical thought) being tested with darkness and penetrating it to light....magical forms used include ceremonial magic of the Left Hand Path sort, with some chaos magic thrown in, and Luciferian Witchcraft.

On the side he does some awesome black metal and ritual ambient stuff...I'm enthralled However, there are some other Luciferian thinkers, whom I am nowhere near as familiar with. Just that with my current explorations and situation in life, Ford really clicked with me...can ya tell?

In Chaos Eternal,
~Jon~

[thought_on_a_wind]

Originally Posted by Gladeflower

Super duper great answer mr.thought_on_a_wind. thank you
Does satanism have anything in common with Lucifer?

Sleep paralyze huh, why would you think that is very interesting? Amilee.
Any knowledge/experience you are willing to share?

that really depends on your school of thought, there is evidence to support that Lucifer was originally associated with non-monotheistic religions... also, depends on your school of Satanism too, Anton LaVey mentions Lucifer in the Satanic Bible, but does so under the premise that humans need to invoke melodrama in their lives and ritual is one of the ways to do it... but... he mentions the reason for the association is to give the mind something to do while you go about your daily life...

Then of course, there is the Masonic (or purported Masonic) association to the Light Bearer, I'm not too privy to their use of his name (and I've got a Masonic uncle to boot... he never talks about the Masons... yet I see his ring and see his picture in the newspaper in full Masonic regalia) but I believe it has something to do with a key of knowledge or something like that... it is a famous association though, if you pay attention to Orthodox Christianity... mostly their conclusive evidence that masons are nothing more than "Satan worshippers" but within the Masonic Order there is no Satan worship, so I'd assume that he might have a position similar to Horus... could be mistaken on that though...

Now, as far as Satanism is concerned, some people try it out and it's just the thing to clear their minds of all the bullshit (whatever you define bullshit as) so they can progress in their spiritual path of their own mind... Others become Satanists and stick with it their whole lives... I believe your best bet for further explanation would be go to the Satanist path section and look around...

Otherwise, follow those link crumbs I gave you and get sucked down the rabbit hole