please i need help

[wanderer]

I'm sorry I don't feel like getting into it much, for the short notes my guy of over a year won't commit, it's difficult to get him to even spend time with me outside of sleeping in the same bed, I love him and I know he loves me, he's just had so many issues he can't show it, I work a job 40 hours a week that's bringing down rules now so ridiculous with pay so low compared with everything new that we had to learn that other stores doing the same thing are getting paid $2 more an hour, I need to find a way back into school outside of the 40 hrs of work I do and I can't get down to a part-time job because I'm saving up for a car and then need to make payments on that. I really have no friends to vent to, most have left me or I left them due to large complexity, and my family is constantly on my case with how I run my life, so please please please good luck, good vibes, heck even a nice thought or gesture my way when you read this would be so welcome. I realize we all have problems, and a lot of people have worse issues than mine, but I've learned to deal with a certain extent and right now all of this, it's just to much.
Thanks for reading

[thought_on_a_wind]

Originally Posted by wanderer

I'm sorry I don't feel like getting into it much, for the short notes my guy of over a year won't commit, it's difficult to get him to even spend time with me outside of sleeping in the same bed, I love him and I know he loves me, he's just had so many issues he can't show it, I work a job 40 hours a week that's bringing down rules now so ridiculous with pay so low compared with everything new that we had to learn that other stores doing the same thing are getting paid $2 more an hour, I need to find a way back into school outside of the 40 hrs of work I do and I can't get down to a part-time job because I'm saving up for a car and then need to make payments on that. I really have no friends to vent to, most have left me or I left them due to large complexity, and my family is constantly on my case with how I run my life, so please please please good luck, good vibes, heck even a nice thought or gesture my way when you read this would be so welcome. I realize we all have problems, and a lot of people have worse issues than mine, but I've learned to deal with a certain extent and right now all of this, it's just to much.
Thanks for reading

[Psychic/Empath/Aquarian WTF mode activate] I feel a sense of universal disconnection due to certain inconsistencies within your life, I do not feel this is directly incurred by yourself as you are, but that a certain amount of power you feel has made... no other way to describe this... but if this makes no sense I swear it's the only way to describe it... Greenish-Dark Red feelings come about in your mind and or heart, this has lead to a doubt of those things around/above/below within you.

There are three entities that have valuable information for you, one inidicates to me that you are in need of thier grey guidance, another announces herself as a semblance of a life once lived with Petunia's (??? I'm hitting a live wire here, and if there's nothing to this please feel free to disregard it as I'm not used to externalizing any kind of mediumistic sort of thing, but feel as if I've fallen into a medium sinkhole that's produced a serious case of OCD), the third has a white spectrum presence about them, but look as if the grizzled years of existence has somehow made an external mark not associated with the white spectrum, each one of these wishes to let you know certain things to help you out of this and many more situations.

Either way, whether my crackpot mediumship actually worked, or if I happened to type in things that seem to be completely unrelated and dissociated with you, you do have my concerns and well wishes.

Blessed Be,
Thought

[abrecan]

ok, school is a definite must. it gives you meaning, and lets you know that there IS a way out. there is financial aid, which i am a proud receiver, and scholarships and grants and things. theres tons of money out there, you just have to find it. (or find someone to find it for you.) the bad part is its hard. im doing full time school and 30 ish hours a week (graveyard) and its tough. but im not complaning, i know im getting kicked in the butt now, but later, ill be on easy street.

about the car, or any car for that matter, unless you have 20-30 thousand dollars to throw away on something plastic and disposable, DEALERSHIPS ARE A BAD IDEA. check your local newspaper. if you know someone who knows cars, be thier friend. when you go check out a car, buy them coffee. id look at any car for coffee . if you want something reliable, stay away from used american cars (ford, chevy etc.) you might have a little luck with dodge, but luck isnt always on our side. opt for honda, toyota, mitsubishi etc. japanese cars. they run forever. and then run some more.

as far as the man situation, you may feel like everything is or is going to be falling apart. remember that you got along just fine before you met him, and if he chooses to leave you, which almost always ends bad for the leaving party, you shall be fine again. honestly, you might be better off without him. if you do go to school, you have one hell of a struggle in front of you without his support. i know its hard hon, but as my wife tells me when im running on 3 hours of sleep and have a full day ahead of me, "put your head down, and concentrate on the small things. daily tasks. dont look at the clock. just do it. you waste energy if you complain or feel overwhelmed. one thing at a time."

[Illumin]

I feel that you need to take a moment to meditate and seperate yourself from your growing concerns. It will give you a moments reprieve and you will be able to face your situation refreshed. Although this will only be a small reprieve in situations such as yours a small reprieve is more than nothing.

You have my kindest thoughts, and wishes. May you overcome your obstacles and be stronger for it.